18.10.2022
😊On my birthday, I get up so so early just to look at around the room, check up my phone to wait for an important message from my best friend, however, seems like she forgot my birthday ^^. Afterward, I start look at the ceiling and think about “What I should do today”.
On my birthday, I shut up all the Birthday notification on Facebook and some app immediately. I do not want to borther others so much.
On my birthday, after getting out of my bed, I open the door and check all my plants in the yard. They are still growing stronger day after day.
On my birthday, I love to have a birthday cake from one of my lovely friend, and share the joy with my immediate family including my siblings, mothers and brothers.
On my birthday, I have been become a banana shipper ^^ I love to sell the organic and fresh food to my closed friends. Therefore, I have driven over 30km from 7 a.m to 12 p.m around the city.
On my birthday, I love to write some words on my blog, to remark this day as my huge happiness.
On my birthday, I have called to my mom, to express the feeling of gratitude to her, and want to let her know that I love her a lot.
😘Ohhhhhh! Seem like these are things I have been done on my birthday. In the past, when I was stucked in depression and high sensitive trauma, I got the bad attitude to my birthday and somehow, I hated my birthday... If some one speaks out loud a white lie or pointless words to me, it hit my emotion a lot, I just confuse and overeact with it a lot of time. You know, though I had those drawback feelings inside, I could not show it out to any people around me. I was scared that they could read all my mind, they could understand me, and therefore the feeling of unease and sadness raise inside my head. My birthdays in the past was so terrible..!
Therefore, on my birthday this year
😌I have been learned one thing from my sweety friend “Let’s love myself first before loving anybody else”.
I have been learned how to respect my life, my moment even the good or drawback issue comes to me.
I have been learned the birthday moment is the precious thing in year, do not hate it just because I hate myself.
I have been learned how to share the joy and sadness to others logically, sometimes it is quite dangerous to keep all thoughts and scare inside.
**Finally, I want to say “Happy Birthday to me” _ I extremely appreciate all the moment I have, all my relatives and friends in my life and in Hive community.
Thank youuuuuuuuu for listening my share on my birthday _.