So when people talk about things that they regret, it is always something that makes you just pause small and say “ahn ahn, why I do this thing like that?
because truly, see as human beings, we all have that one thing we look back at and we juust shake our head, so for me, one thing I know I currently regret in all my years of life is my relationship of 8 years.... Yerpp, 8 whole years no be joke o, like that is not something small you just brush off like that, it was a big part of my life, like something I was deeply involved in, something I gave my time, energy, emotions… everything to, and the funny thing is, I never thought for once that we were going to get to that level where everything would just end like that, In my mind then, I felt like this was something that would last, something that would eventually lead to something bigger and more permanent. I was so used to it, so comfortable in it, that I didn’t even stop to really think if it was truly right for me or not.
Looking back now, I realize that sometimes we stay too long in situations that are no longer serving us, just because we have already invested so much, It is like you keep saying, “I have already spent years here, let me just continue,” not knowing that you are just adding more time to something that is not even working the way it should, like if I knew what I know now, maybe I would have made some different choices, maybe I would have paid more attention to certain signs, or maybe I would have chosen myself earlier instead of trying to make everything work by force, because to be honest here, not everything is meant to be forced ,But at the same time, I won’t even lie, that experience also taught me a lot, it opened my eyes to certain things about myself, about relationships, and about life in general, sometimes regret is not just about pain, it is also about growth. because if I did not go through that, would I really be where I am mentally now? I don’t think so.
It has been over 2 years now since we have been apart, and one thing I can say is that I feel so much at peace, like real peace, not the one you pretend to have, the kind where your mind is calm, your heart is not heavy, and you can actually breathe without overthinking everything.
Now, I am taking new steps in life, I am trying to correct every mistake I feel like I made back then, I am learning, I am growing, and most importantly, I’m choosing myself more, No more losing myself just to make something work, So yes, that relationship is one thing I regret, but at the same time, it also shaped me into who I am becoming now, and honestly, I think I will take the lesson, even if the experience itself wasnot the best.
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