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It is a holiday, and our office is closed until Monday. Rather than being online, creating works, and curating content, I am stuck in my bed sleeping. I got a cold that hinders me from checking my computer from time to time as I sneeze too hard to the point that my brain will pop out if I continue to do so. It is exaggerated, but that's what it looks like. Consecutive sneezes that you want to stop, but you can't. I am dying every second.
While I am in such a state, I try to be still productive in some way by reading a book. This time it is still from Jeff Goins and the book's titled You Are A Writer.
The first few words of the said book, already pique my interest, as I think of myself as not being a writer of no sort. True that I try to create daily content but fail over the course of time, but I never believed that I am one.
For me, a writer is someone who creates pieces of their work and earns from it. It may be a book or a blog or something published, and that's simple as it is. I sway away from the idea that I am one of those, but in truth, I aspire to be one. Maybe you too have the same connotation, or maybe it is just me?
I am at a loss in the sea of thoughts and ideas, self-doubts, and ridicule that I am not good enough to become one. I downplay myself because I am not hitting the criteria that I have set.
A writer is a person who uses written words to communicate ideas - Definitions. net
Aren't we doing it now in our blogs? We write and communicate with others. So why is it hard to accept that we are already a writer?
You have a fear of people knowing you are one. Writers are put on a pedestal of high regard, someone worth listening to. You are not that kind of person, you spew words just for the sake of releasing them to your mind so that it will not be bothering you anymore.
You are also afraid of having lapses in grammar. You believe that writing is just for people who finished a degree in journalism, English, or even communication arts. You never had one nor ever been a part of a school editorial team when you were studying.
Because no one believed that you can, even yourself.
I am in this constant loophole. As I create drafts, I wonder if this is something that I should create. Who's my audience? Is this going to the void of nowhere or maybe it will resonate with someone? To be honest, I really do not know.
I just put it out there in public, be judged and scrutinized so that I can get it off my mind already.
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But for now, I will say that I stopped being an aspirant anymore. Because aspirants just take the motivation and then stopped when it is getting hard.
Though it is hard to chew on. My journey as a writer starts now. Am I a good one? Who knows, but at least I moved out already from my previous place. I am now moving.
If asked, do you see yourself as a writer? Why?