You know what I didn't know what I was, how effective I was for myself. And as the days went by I realized I was for myself, but now why has it changed? Nowadays I feel that I am not for myself, but for you. It makes me more sad than happy, I didn't really want it, but it did and it confuses me even more, what should I do. Where to go, how to calm the eyes. When I scroll through my feeds, they're a lot happier together, but in our case, why the opposite? You know what! Finding you was my FATE, Standing by you side was my choice, But Loving you! i had nothing to do with it, it was out of my control.
It's midnight, I can't sleep. I told my mind, I don't care, but I can't sleep for that. The night is getting darker and quieter. And my eyes are getting tired of staring at the mobile screen. I thought I was the luckiest person, because I got you, I got your love. Your eyes glowing, your smile, the way you speak, revolves around my head. Suddenly I felt something near my ear, it was rolling tears in my eyes. Am I crying? But I should not cry, because I did nothing wrong, then why tears in my eyes?
I was scrolling through my Facebook news feed, everyone posted with beautiful pictures and lovely captions. I was reading them, and imagining with you. But how unfortunate I am, that I am imagining all this a hundred miles away from you. I knew I could not touch you but you are always in my heart. But I am very angry with you because you left me and fell asleep. You know I'll never make it alone, because I can't. You even turn off your phone and gone!!
I feel like if I could leave you alone for the rest of your life, I would be lost, If there was no place to search, you too could understand my pain of being alone. But I can't do that, I promised you I will be by your side all my life, in danger too so that there is someone to support you, and that person could be me.
I know life is hard, but without you it's harder for me. I can't think of anything without you but you? completely opposite. Do you know what keeps me in pain? I think you know, because you know, and you got the chance to put me in pain again and again, you know my weak point, for which you can hurt me more. It's really unfair, I love you and you hurt me?!!! Why?
