At Last, I Stand Aligned

Am I scared of being in my own life, like I’ve been trained to be afraid, even if I’ve been offering all of my time to my body and mind, but I can feel my soul and peace should always be secondary,
Am I scared of being in my own life, like I never doubted myself like this before, I know I grew with pure sureness in myself, now like I’m always doubting myself, needing validation from the outside,
Am I scared of being in my own life, like I’ve been drained from the inside, giving my passions, my time to my future endeavors should always be on the side, never a priority,
Am I scared of being in my own life, I wanted to let go of this pain but you should totally offer 2x your effort in order to fight for your present, or to ground yourself to reality,
Am I scared of being in my own life, I wanted to push myself to do the best that I can do, to the most productive schedule I can do, but it still leans to what’s familiar, it’s leaning to where you used to feel comfortable…