If you only knew how everything changed drastically after you left. It seems like centuries have passed since you left my existence, even though it's only been a few years. I don't particularly appreciate playing tennis anymore, because it won't inspire me without you. The song I used to sing for you is now puffy on my lips. It clogs my throat and loses its meaning when my tongue tries to caress it. You were here for a few moments, and after a while, you left, to an unknown town.
I was walking home from the office, and the next moment, I was answering that reluctant phone call. My whole world was shattered in seconds on that unfortunate night when you were taken away from me. If I only knew that hearing these few simple words would rob me and my life of happiness, I would never answer that call.
Time stood still for a few seconds, and I fell to my knees, panting. I prayed as I had never done before, begging for a miracle so that all the events that just happened would turn out to be wrong. I heard a siren in the distance, and then I realized I was running, running with all my might, trying to catch them. The smoke became my guide when I lost them, and I stopped a few blocks behind the fire. Tears welled up in my eyes as I watched your office burn down.
How did this happen? We were supposed to be together forever. I could barely remember the rest of the night; I woke up the following day in a hospital bed. It was a sad sight to see the nurses look at me so seriously. They would constantly apologize to me, and I thought it was because of you. Then I heard one of them whisper to the other, "She must have been shocked because she lost her husband and her unborn child on the same day.
Your family and my mother took care of me for the next few months. I couldn't move too much, numb with grief. Our child, a memory of yours, is lost forever. I'm fine now, I pray. But sometimes, I get frustrated. And today, what will happen on our tenth anniversary and the fourth birthday of our child? I am longing for the sweetness of your hug and baby smile.
Please come back to me, my love, once more, and give me back my peace of mind and let me live. I beg you; I can't live like this, I can't live long, even if I live like this, don't make me follow you.
