I walk a life altering process, with the people at the group of desteni. From having been a mind slave, addicted, skizofrenic, in uproar, confused, depressed, etc etc... I was living a life very much in misery. This life that I have lived have caused many people many a tears. Meaning my life and turmoil's have hurt people near and far. This is where my starting point now changes. I realize that point of response - ability of my starting point to see into how I have hurt people and caused harm to myself and to others on my path, through life so far.
We always have a starting point, in our awareness, clear and ready, or distant, in the depth of our mind. I suggest to investigate what you have of starting point for the actions you take, the thoughts you think, the words you say, for the life you live. What is the honest and clear starting point of you?
So in this: Chat from Desteni Forum very clarifying chat I saw a martial arts scene, a scene of great moving and body mastery, of two skilled performers of such techniques and skills. It was a rather sublime message in the very beginning of the fight/movement where I saw what was intended for my awareness. A piece of a puzzle for my life process. A piece of puzzle that I would need for and correcting my starting point. And that point is that: I have hurt a great deal of people on my path.
Through my life and living I have abused trust and my life in general only to hurt and cause pain with another. This awareness, or sentence of "I have hurt people in my lifetime" was the piece of puzzle that I needed to hear. Like a wake-up call to myself.
So please forgive me as I forgive myself. Within this I also take to heart that piece of puzzle that I have hurt a great deal of people, and I now stand to make that good again. I stand as correction to the many tears I have caused. I forgive myself and correct my behavior. Now this puzzle piece also came to me, and my process is then expanding and evolving and growing along with me. My starting point is more changed and I am to go on and live the correction.
My starting point is to further secure that my living is now to honor life, to love my neighbor, to live like this was heaven lol, to treat others how I want to be treated. My starting point is therefor altered, like a jump start, and myself I find strengthened. This is how I live, more and more today.
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