When it comes to this week and my feelings and emotions, I would describe them as contradictory. I have had many positive personal moments, but overall the environment remains difficult and depressing. I realise that if you compare the situation on the front two years ago and now, things are not so bad now, but still... Avdeevka was a tough decision. I can't even imagine how the leaders who lost their homes feel. Do the Russians really not realise that they are occupiers? This is some kind of nightmare... Dictator putin is telling historical nonsense and trying to prove to the world that we and the russians are one people. Really? Why on earth would that be the case? It's the endless lies and sick fantasies of a psychopath. What's most amazing is that some people believe it! No one will ever make me speak russian! No one will ever make me feel this way.
On the other hand this week had some wonderful family events. I finally travelled to Kyiv to visit my daughter and we went to a cafe bookshop together. It was really great! Our dogs came with us too and proved themselves obedient and polite. It was one of the few days now where my life had variety. We were lucky that there was no shelling that day and we didn't have to spend precious time in a bomb shelter. My point is that in such a difficult time, the opportunity to see children or friends is especially appreciated, because we never know when we will be able to see each other again. Even more - we never know if we will see each other again.
I received a pleasant surprise from my flowers - the first bloom. It looks like spring is finally here. I am thinking that next week I can already start the first work in my garden. Especially as physical labour helps to stabilise my mental state a little. The 24th of February is approaching - it will be two years since the russian orcs started their open attack on my country and ten years since their first attack in 2014. I didn't feel it as acutely last year. We were probably too busy surviving during the blackout and constant shelling. This is a really hard time. I don't know what the world leaders are thinking. If they hope that russian cannibals will stop eating Ukraine, it is very naive. It is enough to go back a little bit and remember what the russians made on those European territories, which they actually occupied after the Second World War. Do the citizens of these countries have such a short memory?
