The past few days I had the experience to walk besides a woman who truly lives in the moment.
Last Friday I was on my way to my practice, while I felt I should be somewhere else.
My spirit told me, once again, to visit the woman who gave me the painting last week.
Earlier this week I already knew this, but chose not to engage. As it was not clear for and a whole lot of intense distractions came up.
Til yesterday and my spirit told me once again. While I was a bit 'afraid', my inner-child was afraid and getting a lot of things thrown at me. Telling me, screaming and almost begging me not to go. Why was my inner child so afraid?
Our soul knows when something big is coming up and inside is our trauma triggers us to move forward. It challenges us to stay connected and listen to the triggers.
My inner child was afraid to experience warmth, love and softness. Softness from the people who I am going to meet and from the woman I was meeting.
So I texted her like 'I don´t know what's going on, but my inner child is afraid and I should give you an energetic clean up, before you go on you road trip'
She answered with "I would love to have an energetic clean up". But I don´t have time today, I am celebrating my birthday, doing to a dance and I am busy packing my things for the trip.
But, she added. You are more then welcome to join!
"oke, let met check what I can do from the practice, but I believe it should be physical." and "I had to take my toothbrush with me for I case I have to spend the night somewhere."
The synchronicity kicks in.
A friend who organized the dance, told her there's only one ticket left. Next she said, my birthday party is at this lady, who works with Dragon Energy... I am like uhh.. I always wanted to meet her!
Within 10 minutes I was in and out my practice, catching the next train and bus. While I was on the train I did some remote healing. Visualizing her in front of me, it really touched me. As the energy felt very similar to a few 'unknown person' remote session. A bit confused and excited. Trying to life the moment and release all expectations. No matter what happens today, I will be present and stay in flow!
After 2,5 hour public transfer I arrived at the party. The energy in the room was overwhelming. I had a few moments of challenging myself to stay present. It was warm, lovely and open, with like minded people.
I spoke to a friend of hers. With whom she was creating sound-healings. He surprised me by saying that he found another healer, a bit like him. We talked a bit and mirrored each other. As I found the energy of such intensity, I was in and out my body. Regaining my present moment and trying not to analyze what was happening around me and within me.
What I came to do
While I really had no further intentions and no leads how to get from a to b or what my plan was after.
I got with her in the camper to the next venue. There was this strange connection, learning, listening and more ore less some sort of equality. Which is a strange sensation. We almost mist our turns at the high way and joked about seeing double or triple numbers. It was very sincere and very in the moment.
We arrived at the ecstatic dance and I knew I had to do some work on her. So she could release this feeling she kept for so long. But when is it the right time? I found it difficult to relax, as I was a man on a mission. Scanning the room, playing with frequencies and so on.
And then there the moment appeared. It was time to release the burden she carried. It was really intense, I asked a few of her friends to take over, as it was not my part to actively continue. Just space-holding and protected her back from the surrounding energies. After the release, she regained an enormous relaxation and had very great rest of the evening. As was I.
But still. Living in the moment, also means losing track of time. I missed the last train...
I could stay at her place for the night. The couch is wonderful :-)
While driving back we had some fun and again seeing those double numbers again. We arrived at her place, let the dogs out and talked for another few hours. Her present did trigger me more then once. As I found if very difficult to keep eye contact.
Where did we meet, in which life, what is our connection and what is the lesson to learn?
I had some many questions in my head and sure I can investigate them. I kept asking my higher-self and most of the time the answer was "let go, be present and enjoy the moment".
After a few hours I woke up early. With a few triggers in my head from past lives. Experiences I could connect to the reason, why I met her.
I find it very difficult to embed and experience unconditional love, a warm nest, softness. All those sweet and caring feelings. In many past lives I have been extremely sexual traumatized in very early ages and in this live I had my stuff as well. So every time something kind is happening or with such love. I go out, leave my body or and I could become uneasy, sometimes pushing and demanding.
For this moment, the lesson is to stay present and receive.
Her trip
As she had planned to leave at the end of Saturday evening and still had a tons of stuff to do. I felt I couldn't just leave.
being in the constant present, has it ups and downs. You really have no overview and time management. Everything is in the moment. It felt very right to help her and trying to structure it enough to keep a flow.
We did as much as we could, had some fun and synchronizations. Even this has to end at a certain point. She came in a time issue. Going to some shops and having a dinner not much later.
To these wonderful days came an almost abrupt end. Both being very grateful and tired from some intense days. I had to catch my bus at 18.18, she dropped me off at the bus station and went to her dinner party.
Our synchronicity ended by seeing my bus driving the opposite direction from where I was waiting.
She goes on her journey and I on my. One thing is for sure, we will meet again. As my crystal dragon insisted to keep her company, guiding her on this trip :-)
Timothy
