There are two types high sensitivity. One we are born with and the other one is overstimulated sensory. The latter becomes a mechanism to cope with our surroundings.
The one we are born with is our nature, it's part of our design and blue print. What happens if you get on Earth, you are being born and noone is there to guide you. Guiding you in how to use and adapt this gift. What happens when ur fresh out of your "home" and you are welcomed in a strange world. Maybe even an hostile world. All your senses are on maximum power. Exploring the energy's around you. Your eyes are closed, your ears, nose and touch are wide open.
How does that first contact smells, feels or hears like? Is it warm, cold? Do you sense other energy's that aren't visible to the eye? Is there happiness or is there sadness? What do you feel? Is it safe? Do you even want to be here or do you want to go back where you came from?
So many impressions and if you are lucky everything is safe, calm and at piece. You are being welcomed into this new world. No worries all is safe and well.
But what if it isn't safe? Where do you go? How are you gonna handle your sensivity? Becomes every touch, smell, word or emotion a trigger to protect yourself?
And what happens if you grow up? Do all those mechanism go away or do they become a part of you? A coping mechanism.
How far do you get seperated from yourself? And is there a way to remember who you were, just before being born?
Or did you already experience hostility when you where in the womb? What if? Can you still remember who you are? Or is everything over written?
Who's there to guide you? So many questions and uncertainties...
Luckily there are many people out there who wants us to guide and support us to peel the layers. Layers of convictions, layers of protection. There are many forms of guidance. The so called "modern" medicine, the complementary health system, ancient healing arts and so on. But which one are you gonna choose? And how do you choose if you are disconnected from your own feeling and intuition?
As kid I developed very early allergies. My senses were overstimulated and almost everything I experienced, I'm still responding to. From couching (like in asthma) to not heing able being in the open air when the season changed. I developed a fear for many things.
Is the outer world safe? Is my inner world safe?
How do I expres myself, so I won't get hurt, do I dare to let go or do I keep everything and everyone inside me?
Its a big project, a big journey and how strange it sounds. I am really enjoying to solve this puzzle and if I had the chance I wouldn't have change anything.
Today I had a talk with my therapist and we figured out. That my current cough had to do with being in contact. Nature, people, pets everything has an certain energy. At some point in my child something happened, which made me to keep everything inside me. Something to lose or loss, was a no go. A bit like afraid of rejecting.
Recently I became aware, as long I've inner peace, I'm in balans. Nothing is wrong, I'm not coughing nor I had stress marks. But as soon I started to engage, it could be an email, phone call or a face to face chat. My system went into high alert and I started to cough.
I found this very interesting. So with my therapist I went deep in myself and set things right. To let go is safe, to let go sets you free, to let go is gratefulness, being letting go is safe and should be joyful.
Having gratitude is important. Thanking everyone and everything for the lesson, for the awareness and letting go, is the way to heal yourself.
My cough was gone. I was relieved and now I have to put it in practice.
As soon I had finished the meeting. I got an text "Timothy, would you like to tell the kids something about the owl cabin you have made?"
Still feeling a bit emotional, fear took over.. what would be the expectations? Can I do this?
In an instant my cough got back, and my throat chakra got blocked.
My inner demon at play for the next layer. 馃檹
