What is your truth? What are your lies about? What are you afraid of? What makes you feel safe? What do you hate about yourself? What makes you love yourself? What makes you alive? What makes you want to be dead? What makes you feel young? What makes you old? What makes you feel the love? What does it feel to be hated? How to be somebody? What does it feel to be nobody?
Even if you’re near or far it feels like you’re still nobody. It doesn’t change anything. Years of sacrifices is still nothing to them, to anybody. It feels like the unending search for success, for desire, for passion, for ample help, for yourself is endless. What am I searching for? What am I aiming for? What do they need? How do I save this life, their lives?
It seems even if I have dozens of millions, dozens of gifts, dozens of years to offer, it is still not enough. It is not enough to feel the satisfaction from within, to achieve from desire, the comfort from satisfaction, and respect you very much deserve. Even if you give almost everything, I think this will just disappear in a split of a second. What is more to life if you’ve given everything else. What is left of you? What if you just wanted to be somebody? What if you wanted to unchain the rest? Will there still be hope for you, for us, for me?…
You may don’t want to surrender! Maybe you’re already near this finishing line or maybe just the start. Or maybe you’re just being hard on yourself with all of these dreams, with all of this desire, with all of these expectations that you’ve given to yourself. This harshness, this inner appetite to help others makes it equally important to help yourself first. Maybe you’re the only one that needed saving. A chance for self-love, a chance to make way for yourself now. Not that everything should be disregarded but if that love, eagerness and passion from within should be developed for self-love first, then why not enjoy it. Feel that joy, that happiness and peace from within first. Why not feel the pleasure of your real well-being from this comfort. The comfort of being given the chance to be who you are, to be what you want to be.
Get off the hook fast as soon, you will be trapped from ambiguity. Unless you want to be eaten by your deepest fear that you couldn’t run away from. Unless you want to be just stagnant and just routinely lifeless? Be my guest…
Those days when you’ve been given the chance to be more. Remember the days without worry, all comforts and plenty? Remember the days where opportunities were just in front of you and you didn’t notice and thought of it? Will you still be able to go back and just be in it again? Imagine if you could have dreamt bigger, will you still need saving?…
Maybe everything is caught up and eaten by his or her own lives, issues and sense of security but are you aware that maybe, maybe it can be my turn now?… without any guilt, to be ME!
Watchwords:
Truth
Keep
Saving
Me
Anger
Guilt
Here is Tikatarot, who dares you to answer the question, “Who am I?”...
As and will always be reminding you to dream:
