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It feels ridiculous to try and write about this lower back pain once again just to try and help myself in some way; I mean, I do not even know if this pain is getting out or just building up inside anymore, but it is a pain that I do not know how I will get over any longer. The problem is that the pain won't just go, no matter what I do. That is what is really upsetting; it is as if I am not even trying my hardest to address the problem and just keep suffering the pain.
I was at the hospital on two separate occasions just this past month, I have taken the correct prescription medication, used herbal remedies just to see if any would get me relief and if the pain would go, but the pain will seem like it's gone, then not even over a day it returns again.
What is also worrying is that it doesn't need anything to triggers it just appears for no reason whatsoever, other times it changes position from lower back to my left leg down to my toes. Not only is this painful, but it is mentally draining too.
It is at night time that the pain is at its worst and I no longer look forward to having peaceful night sleep at night because of the pain. It gets worse at night when I lay down on the bed. The only period I am feeling a bit of relief is when I am in motion or standing.
I think this now has to be addressed properly, and what has happened is that I have been told to go and see a specialist hospital, get some scans done and find out what is wrong as to make sure that I have the proper treatment and am not guessing it anymore.
However, along with all of this, what worries me more is that I am currently at a tight corner financially, which is another real issue. Knowing what to do but not being able to do it is another layer of stress It is already hard dealing with the pain itself, but it becomes even much difficult when money become the barrier to getting proper care.
This is now where I find myself, trying to manage the pain and at the same time living with limited resources. It's not an easy situation to be into, and I do not wish it to anyone.
I think it's right for me to speak out at this point and seek for help. But who do I know that can be of help to me at this critical time of my life? I would just leave it out here in writing, perhaps someone might find interest in it. Therefore I am writing to you now; not because it is necessarily any easier anywhere. I am speaking because at the moment, I really need help from wherever I can get.
I am just here waiting to see if things ever improve and I hope that I find help soon before the pain gets worse than it's presently.
