Sorry you're in a recurring black hole situation. Everyone goes through "up" and "down" cycles, but yours sounds more intense than some. You said: "Not much of a writer. More of a typer." So, maybe you could journal on the computer. Write stuff in NOTEPAD and save it to your computer. Or if you wanted a more permanent record of it, we could setup a separate account here on Hive for the journals; you could be anonymous or not, your choice. But yeah, don't be limited to journaling on paper if typing is better for you! NOTEPAD is awesome for all sorts of things! GOOD LUCK pulling out of this! 💖