"You were born to bloom, so what if it's a little late. Remember, it's the late bloomers that survives even when the season ends"- Saniya Akbar
Finally, I found the community that suits well in some of my unsaid thoughts where I can express my experiences and reflections in life. Please do allow me to pour my heart out.
I've always been the kind of person that is shy, has a ton of doubts, worries and insecurities, I was the one who's always looking down on myself and it hurts my head thinking what I really want to do and want to be when I grow up. Teenagers at my age already knew what they want to be, yet there I was, stuck in my own lonely world.
Back then, my favorite lines was "I cannot do it" "what if I'll fail" "is it really worth trying? " These thoughts always dominate my mind whenever I want to try something new in my life. But whenever I wanted to, my negative thoughts always win and ended up not trying to do so. That's why sometimes I choose to be alone and caught myself in my own imaginary world, well I'm enjoying it though because there, I feel that I am the most productive person that ever exist.
Everyday I woke up from bed, I always don't feel safe in my own shoes. But everytime I get up from bed and took a stroll in my mom's garden to mellow out. There's always these beautiful flowers that are gracefully blooming and carrying positivity, it always feels like they are saying something to me but I just ignored it.
One time, life took an unexpected turn. Guess what, I became a prominent figure at the school where I used to study. It gave me the feeling that I always wanted to feel in reality, where I feel safe, being proud of myself, accepted by someone, being confident and become a productive person. It took me a broken heart, anxious and depressed mind and a bullied character just to get up on my own two tired feet and realized what the flowers wanted to tell me the entire time, and it was to bloom.
Just like flowers we have a purpose, that purpose was to bloom, bliss others and encourage them to be strong, get up and bloom in unpleasant situtations that test one's strength, resilience and firmness to a test. It's never too late to take the bravest leap of faith, for we are destined for a greater good. We should not lose hope on ourselves even if we are mocked by fate, we should not position ourselves in it, but despise it rather. The key to create and rewrite our own fate, is already in the palm of our hands. All we need to do is get a grip, master our capabilities, grapple with adversity and bloom like a flower.
We should always remember that, whenever life feels so down you are not alone and it's not the end of you. All you need to do is to have courage and be brave in every step we take, because it can make an improvement and we should consider to be mindful and pay attention in everything that is in our vicinity, for us to know what they're trying to tell us. For the reason that we never know that the inspirations and the answers that we spend our whole life looking for was just around the corner, waiting for someone to listen.
Dear my gorgeous Hivers, I hope that you guys are doing fine and if ever you are feeling the same way I used to feel, just don't forget to get up on your own two tired feet and bloom.
Cheerio!
