Today was just too much to bear. I was already stressed out with a lot of things to start with, and then our Internet connection added to my list of many problems.
I'm trying to make ends meet by working hard and adding more classes so I could pay the bills and loans, but then I had to cancel my classes because there's no Internet connection.
Well, I have my backup just in case. I tried to continue working using my backup for the other classes, but then, my old laptop started acting up. Waaaaa... My salary isn't even enough for the bills and loans recently, now I'd have some deductions because of it.
It's too much. It's really true when they say "When it rains, it pours." Can I cry now? I already opened a bunch of classes for tomorrow and I just hope it'll be fixed before then. I'm already struggling, and now this??? It's just too much.
Then, there's even a notice of a rotational electricity interruption in the coming days... This means I may or may not cancel classes again because they happen randomly. I just can't anymore... T_T
I even started powering down recently for extra income... I'm trying to divert my attention from all these problems, but they're just coming one after another. Sometimes, I just want to give up... but I can't. Every time I think about my parents and my younger cousins who I want to help, I just can't see myself giving up.
Why is life so hard??? Why does it feel like everything is going against me? hahaha It's so crazy... I hope it's fixed soon and I hope they cancel the rotational power interruption so I could work in peace and slowly get rid of these thorns in my life. UGH~!!!!
Good thing my morning classes and first few classes in the afternoon were already finished when the connection was lost. I could also use my backup PC and WiFi for a bit even though it was a struggle.
I'm also able to write a blog post, somehow... but really... T_T
At least I could vent out my frustrations here. I'll stop for now and save my data in case my internet provider fails to fix the connection tomorrow... but I really hope they do.
Thanks for giving this space to vent out... I feel much better somehow... but maybe I'll cry again.. hahahuhu I'm going crazyyyy... byeeee~
