Feeling so damn focused this morning, I took a totally different route and ended up doing a good chunk of the exercise I needed before the day starts, lovely and fresh, no rain.
My mind was racing again, I noticed how much intention energy was mixed together with frustration and angst, I could feel myself like a Harry Potter sorting hat going through all the little cards of data and trying to sort them between annoyance to positivity — the exercise was giving me clarity, it allows my mind to wander but be in touch with my heart beat and breath.
tomorrow is steemfest 4 (yay!) for many steemians in Bangkok, Thailand and it’s very hot there at the moment, I know me I’d probably get ill or something and it would ruin the whole week but I’m excited to watch the live streams and see what gets announced and to see if anything get’s released or if it’s just more hype train. I’m hoping for some surprises.
Photo by Boxed Water Is Better on Unsplash
It’s been an interesting last three months on the steem blockchain as people have gone into their little ‘class’ groups on here, downvoting wars, all kinds of things, in between it all I keep posting, to the lovely immutable part of the chain, dreaming of days when i decide to jump back properly into the fray, those days are not close right now — that’s ok, working on it.
I’ve been finding that the exercise routine is sticking this time, I can’t say why that is the case, maybe just blatant determination to cause a space time ripple for change like my mention did not get through, I’m glad to have the mental fortitude to keep at it, I do feel like I’m on the cusp of a good, big change, long time coming I’d say.
Exercise and being more zoned into what my body and mind is doing really is helping shape intentions, removing the ones that are ego and vanity and the pure ones of wanting to build things and learn new skills, of course in this day and age you really need to build things that allow you to live out the life that you dream so you have to play the game a little. I don’t like doing that so that’s always been hard for me.
Regardless, I’m thankful for the clarity it is bringing and I’m flipping the bird on the bad energy juju my brain likes to throw in there and focusing on what can be done, what I’m able to do, what I know, what I’ve played with and in return teaching others —- I’m open to evolution in my own mind instead of being trapped by it I guess the best way to put it.
Ok, time to get into the week.
__humble x
