I work and hustle hard because I can't screw up. I have nobody to fall on because I am the backup!
These are the words I utter when somebody tells me I have already changed.
Yes, I admit that I have already changed, a change that I was longing for so long, a change that I will never regret having, and a change that I will always be proud of.
Years ago…
I am stagnant; I usually do what my mind thinks about and am only capable of some things that I know. I am a coward and scared to move out of myself in the box because I am worried about the result and thinking,what if I failed?
I have no goals; I'm just living my life where I used to, without prioritizing things I need to have in the future.
I am messy and unorganized; my time focuses on going out and wasting my time on social media, making me procrastinate and lazy, so most of the time, I never finish a task and become so unproductive.
I go along with people who love wasting their time on unnecessary things—having such fun with places that don't give me peace but rather chaos. These people I thought would be there for me during my breakdowns, but I was wrong. They just took advantage of me and used me for things that could favor them, and I have left nothing in pain.
I wasted a lot of money, and I have no savings, so when time in an emergency, I cannot have something to use. I bought a lot of stuff that satisfied me and gave money to those who manipulated me, so I have nothing in return; it just gives me stress and frustration.
I am not confident in handling things alone. I know I need people who will be there for me. I am dependent on what they say, which leads me to nothing but regret.
So when my sister-law invited me to try writing and blogging, I was initially hesitant because I was not confident. After all, I knew I was not a good writer. So when a day passed, and I finally decided to try it, it changed a lot of aspects of my life. During my time blogging and writing some articles, it's not just about the earnings that I can have because my perspective in life changes a lot. I took a step forward, went out of my comfort zone, and everything changed.
These are the learning I've got:
Breaking up with your old patterns would be best when you desire new outcomes and better life changes.
I learned to eliminate overthinking and negative thought patterns, habits, and behaviors. It would be best if you started believing that you could do it and have all the potential to step up. It would be best if you left all behind things that don't serve you the highest good in life. It started to separate you from any distractions because these distractions would take you away from your goals and the life you wanted.
You are the master of your own life, and you need to learn to control your attention goes value whom you give your time and energy.
So instead of crying and overthinking my problems, I focused on writing. I gave myself a chance to change that. Instead of sharing all my issues with all people that I know, I stay in my room and write until I am relieved.I start to unfollow emotionally draining people in my life.
Risking is always better than regretting that you did not take the chance to be better in life.
Life is about unending trial and error, and you must take it no matter what. If you get overwhelmed with significant changes, you need to cope with them because change is the only thing constant in life. Change what you can change, and let go of the rest.
You need to trust yourself!
It would be best if you learned to trust that a future awaits you beyond what you might be able to grasp and what you can now.
Your life is what matters the most. You have to experience everything, the good and the bad. What you went through and what happened in the past are the things you can use to motivate yourself to be better than ever. It would be best if you made the most out of it because there is no replay button. If you want to do something, you must do it now!
Say Yes!
Your breaking moments can be the best breakthrough you need; just because it's unusual and uncomfortable doesn't mean it's worthless. A year from now, you will wish that you had started today. Time will fly and leaves you only one of these things; regret and best results!
These are the things I learned when I started focusing on myself and setting goals for my life. I may feel tired and exhausted sometimes, but I know it is all worth it.
Not everyone may not understand my journey, they may not appreciate my changes, and not everyone may believe in me. But I am the author of my own story; take my part; I must not change who I am. I need to stay focused and stay in my phase!
There is no turning back; my goal is not to be better than anyone else but to be better than I used to be.
Thank you so much, see you in my next blog!
