Damn it’s been 4 years… I started this blog for school, but after i finessed the layout design i told myself i’d start writing on it. Never did, till now…I guess this break from weed/dabs was well needed. Although i am still eating mmj. RSO straight up in the mouth. Turns your teeth all brown and gives you a weird mild high , but after two days of no thc whatsoever and maybe 4 hours of sleep combined both nights, i decided to take some rso to help with sleep. So right now it’s like 9 o clock and i took some rso an hour ago and i feel fuckin stupid as fuck right now. My fingers are mad slow on the keyboard. But i’ve done this ol writing thing before and know to work through block to find voice. Many teachers, students, coworkers, friends etc have enjoyed my writing over the years, and have told me to put something out. So it begins.
I have big dreams, big goals, and want to do a lot in my life. I want to go everywhere and meet as many different unique people so i can satisfy my undying thirst for knowledge and new information. I want to know as much as there is for me to know, so before I pass I can share what I’ve discovered with the world and keep that knowledge alive. I want to know all the secrets. I want to circumnavigate the earth, I want to see everything. I want to leave earth and see other places. There is just so much mystery in this reality to me. Since a kid i always thought that. I always felt energy/weirdness from other people. Like I remember being really little, and staring in people’s eyes and getting the feeling that they were out of this world. I’ve always felt out of this world, and gotten along with people who are also very out of this world. It’s a cool concept. Being of elsewhere while you are somewhere, never knowing where your origin began. Floating around. Ok ok you’re German and your great great grandparents were born there, all that is fine and dandy. But think for a second, for a species to be born must it not begin from two sets of DNA procreating? Or were just mad heads dropped on earth at once and they all started fucking? Years of doing hallucinogens and reading a lot of books has/had me hooked on the whole idea of biocentrism. Basically your reality that you interpret with your 5 senses is a direct projection of your consciousness. Like constantly living in a lil VR headset. Where if you are good enough at altering your consciousness (thru meditation, calming the mind, hallucinogens, alpha vs beta brain waves etc) you can enjoy the best video game/movie ever (your reality). This concept is very cool to me, because when I am really “on” or “sharp” with my mind and consciousness this rings true. But, honestly it is hard to get “on” or “in the zone”, in that complete meditative, relaxed, asleep-but-awake phase of being . Life today, especially in the USA, is pretty stressful. Terrorist this, virus that, cancer over there, mass shootings blam blam, GMO’s, taxes, “immigration” lol (America is a country of immigrants. politics is so funny to me it’s just incessant fighting over null issues that all could be solved with one sentence), lead in the water (s/o like every public school in the US, they’re finding out now), fluoride, Police thinking they are the law but we the citizens actually pay their salary with our taxes, and a really corrupt political/banking system in general.
Here is where I feel like the internet comes in.
I think the internet will save humanity. From destruction, from corporate takeover, terrorism, the CIA, the military industrial complex, OPEC, The Federal Reserve, New World Order etc…
The internet is man’s next step. Bringing people together in an ever separating, lonely, classist, boxed up, labeled little world. The internet is the future of community. And through community developing a new society of respect and equality.
Bringing people together that couldn’t find eachother offline, the internet is a free space where everyone can feel comfortable. Because there is no immediate whiplash. Your friend Johnny who shoots you that hypercritical eyebrow raise everytime you try to rap DMX even tho you’re mad white isn’t there. Yes there are haters, commenters, etc but you have the POWER to block and remove them. You control your world. You choose your personality you put out online; your image, your tone, word choice, style, character, everything. You constantly edit, tweak, and alter your profiles to perfection. The internet is you; dolled up in your littleblackdress and Louboutins with perfect makeup on/three piece suit with Ferragamo wingtips and Armani cologne on BUT ALL THE TIME. It’s your best you, 24/7. That’s awesome isn’t…That’s where my appreciation for the internet began….
I’ve always been very observant. Of other people, myself, the world, everything really. In high school I would go on facebook and search for everyone in my school, i think we called this being a creeper back in the day lol. The main thing i was looking for were the people who would hide or not really express themselves too much, or my other favourites were people who had more reserved blandish or seemingly robotic personalities. I would find their profiles online and BLAM! their true authentic personality oozed out of every square inch of the screen! Hella custom backgrounds, songs, lyrics, about me sections, quotes, pictures with their real friends, the newest memes, jokes, games, thoughts on school/life, photo challenges, outfits, trends, fuckin A! It was so sick to me to see these kids for who they really were in just a few minutes of scrolling, because i don’t think i could have ever gotten to know them at that deep of a level offline. Some may say oh Taylor OMG this is a societal problem, how can we have a world of people who only know how to operate online and can’t function day to day offline? Listen up here Jimmy, the future is online. Haven’t you noticed? Practically every fuckin thing we need to fill our houses with comes to us within 2 days from Amazon. The grocery is delivered. You can earn money through the internet. Uber. Touro. Air B&B. It’s like society is podding up. Like the outside environment in cities is so nasty that we stay in our little cubicle AC’d apartments , vacuum seal pop into an Uber through a specially designed chamber, then pop out again at the restaurant and so on and so forth lol. Nah just kidding, but really though: traffic is getting pretty much FUCKING HORRIBLe in like every state but Texas. More people are GETTING ANGRY ABOUT THEIR POLITICAL STANCES LIKE HEY U WANNA FIGHT ME ABOUT TRUMP BRAH?! People are getting increasingly worse and worse at social skills/being around other human beings. And people , WHO AREN’T TAPPED IN TO THE GENIUS OF THE INTERNET, are becoming less and less capable of thinking for themselves because of how amazing media and advertising is getting at plugging dopamine receptors and shoving fear down the throats of any/all viewers. There’s a term i learned for this in school, i’m gonna look it up. Cultivation theory. Too much TV, you believe the TV reality. You think every black person is a gang member, you don’t actually consume/appreciate art/movies you just recite “critics” reviews (usually out of 5 or 10 stars), and you think every local police investigative team has a hot chick in a pant suit 24/7 on it.
It’s a high strung world out there ladies and gents! That is why we must come together through the internet. That’s why the internet is our future. It is limitless in both its potential and space! It, unlike our lives (well depending on what you think), will never die. It will exist forever. Your perfect self existing forever..isn’t that cool to think of? The coolest of the cool; your best outfits, thoughts, ideas, businesses, moments in time, memories, relationships, pictures, music, art etc existing forever!
This blog entry is the start of my journey online. Tdeezi forever!!
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