How the resolutions Are Coming
It's been a tough start to the year. There were lot's of surprises and unexpected twists I still can;t talk about yet. It almost felt like there were forces out to thwart me, and by the end of January, I felt I have at least gone half way through the year.
Phew!
I did not really make 'resolutions' as I used to. Unlike before when I had savings target entering into a new year, at the beginning of this year I only told myself I will save as much as I spend. Of course business people will say that it is not SMART, as it is not specific and measurable. Truth is, I know who I am, I know what I am. I am the one whose head is under water but is breathing fine, and trust me when I say that I'll be fine. Or what should I have done when emergencies arose? Stare at my savings account and say "Nah, I ain't touching ya now, I have a target to meet"? I'll save my life first before I save money.
I know what I am.
More than all these though, towards the end of last year I promised not to worry about things that are beyond my control. In the beginning, it tend to make me indifferent towards work, but after some time, I realized that there is a difference between nonchalance and being worry free. The former is a careless attitude, almost like a lack of desire to continue living, while the latter is simply doing your best and leaving what troubles your heart in the hands of God. Again, what is the use worrying about something I cannot change? It is for situations like this that Yoruba people say "The moon shines but one says 'it is not well dressed,' let he whose hand can reach it, adjust it." Meaning, if you can't change it, leave it be, do not fret. I am pleased with my efforts towards this so far.
Did I not also say that I was going to spend more time with family and friends? All I can say is that I will understand if everybody hates me now. The truth is that I make plans, but I end up not following through with them. Earlier today, my friend of almost ten years called and in the midst of the conversation asked why I had not called all year. My reply: "Life tough, man." Then he said, "But I called you." I have no excuse, guys, but I'm not a bad person, I promise.
If you're seeing this, I'm sorry, coz. I know I promised, but I'm sorry.
And as to the other small matter of making other people happy because I want to be happy, my score will be an average one, but maybe it's too early to judge seeing that I'm going through all the things I am going through.
Maybe this prompt will be repeated at the end of April, that way, we should have concrete results to report with. @Medemausi, what's up with you resolutions?
