Good afternoon. I haven't written here for a long time. Now, in my emotional state, I have reached the very bottom, and I am trying to break out. I don’t really want to share what happened, but the number of problems and problems I have now exceeds my ability to solve them. I am very tired mentally, and I really want to leave here. At least for a week to a safe place. I'm tired of this air raid warning, I'm tired of explosions at night. I just don't want to run out of the store with a frightened child because stinking Russia is attacking my city with missiles. I'm so tired of this, I don't understand why I need this. I feel like God is punishing me for something. I was so happy before the war…
Due to new circumstances and the situation in the country, I have a choice - to leave and split my family in half or go crazy here. The thought that I have let everyone down cannot leave me. I should have done more for my friends and family. I knew that there would be a war, I was warned, but I could not convince my family to leave before it happened! Sometimes one wrong decision leads to a whole series of problems in the future, as I learned. I would really like to go back in time and fix everything. I blame the whole world: how is it that people die every day in our country, while in other countries it is peaceful and quiet. How can the world look at this calmly? why all of them (terrorists simply cannot be destroyed?).Where is NATO?
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