I am becoming tired day by day. I am tired of these exams and hustles of life. Yet, it is life and i have to keep walking and keep making it my own life.
Today, I went for another exam.... looking for government jobs. Failed so many jobs. Lost so many hopes but it springs from nowhere from darkness and from nothing. It was hot as hell. I don't know how it feels like to be in hell but it was similar to that ( maybe). Traditional exams are good as i just need a marker, a ball point and exam sheet but there are many exams where digital screens appear infront of my eye balls and it's so crazy. I don't like these screens. There is constant ticking of clock over screen and it increases my heartbeat.
I was so engrossed in my mobile phone, after taking exam. I was worried about the upcoming result of those exams i have taken months back. Results always bring a tension/ a stress with them for free. But, my father was also busy on his mobile phone with some clients and sending voice mails. Amidst all these, we lost somewhere. We derailed our car from the main track and reached a canal side where we planned to have finger fish and some other fish for lunch.
There were so many pigeons around coming out of their shelters ( or i should say prison) and walking around water, drinking water. While some of them were avoiding direct sun contact and sitting under the shade of leaves.
Greenery alongside the canal, some people were standing there around the fence and looking into the running brown soil colored water. I looked at these green patches and walked towards my father.
While seeing, i thought so many impossible happenings in the world and wished one for me.
My father was waiting for me on the lunch table. I just walked there.
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