Hey, my name is @SumatraNate. I am a firstborn son. This is my story.
Birth Order
Isn't it funny how birth order helps define who we are? I am a classic first born.
I wanted my parents to be proud of me in everything I did. I leaned towards academics, so I worked hard to earn A's on my report card. I longed to hear the words, "We are proud of you."
I wanted clearly defined boundaries. I wanted to know other peoples' expectations so that I would strive towards meetings those expectations. I liked rules. I followed rules. I was a "good kid" , not a rebel.
Gender
I felt that dad was harder on me than my younger sister, but I have learned that is what happens to firstborn sons. One's gender defines cultural and familial expectations. It helps define how people look at you, judge your value, judge and your future potential.
I embrace my masculinity. I feel that I am a good husband and a father because of what my Dad taught me, but I wish that growing up I would have been more interested in cars, hunting, and other activities that dads and sons do together. I wish that despite my disinterest my Dad would have tried to harder to teach me those things.
Not Much Has Changed
At my core, I am still very much the same person I was when I was a child. Granted, I have more knowledge and experience, but the core of who I am has not changed that much.
I still want to excel. I still appreciate hearing, "We are proud of you." I appreciate kind, affirming words and gentle, constructive criticism. Both push me forward and aid in my personal development and growth.
I still like knowing where the boundary walls are placed. But I have started pressing on those walls more than ever before. I will still obey the rules, but I want to test to see if there is flexibility in those rules.
Final Thoughts
To know my story, you have to learn a little bit about me and what makes me tick. I appreciate you stopping by. And I am grateful for the chance to keep sharing my story.
