So yeah... my planned #Splinterlands stream definitely didn't go ahead, because, well... I literally haven't been in the right state of mind for it. Unfortunately, even if I'm on medication, it's sometimes a dice roll at present as to if my depression doesn't interfere with any of my plans, be that streaming (which I am trying to balance scheduling for), thrifting (with the associated Diggerventures photo), or filming, or just planning in general!
I'm not understating matters when I say that at present, I'm more than a mess mentally! Eventually, things will improve, but at present, things are rocky, and therefore I'm not able to do things in a timely manner, which is why I took a break from streaming to begin with. I don't dislike streaming for the record, but sometimes, things I enjoy doing (without people watching) are a bit of a struggle, which is why you see me delay my stream, and in some cases cancel!
I'm not going to force myself to do anything when it's clear I'm not able to because it's unfair to everyone; me because it puts me in a bad state mentally or it worsens how I feel, and also everyone else who watches the stream/video because I feel that it's not nice watching someone either struggle or otherwise not enjoy what they're doing!
Eventually, this will cease to be the case, and my streaming hiatus won't be forever, and I will eventually get some videos out, but at this time, I'm not entirely sure when I'll be creating content other than photos, statuses, or blog posts, but at the same time, at least I am able to do some stuff, so hopefully getting into a routine with those may have a positive effect on me being able to stream and start doing videos again!
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