#plsResteemandupvote
Maybe I am not just good at dreaming big, I mean day dreaming or better still I should start living and face life realities.
For over twenty something years of my life, I have always ended living against my wish and will, i know it should not always swing towards our ways but mine never tallies at all. It's always the opposite of my wish and day dreams that life throws at me each and every day.
Sometimes I wonder why on earth I was allowed to come out at the first instance if this was how it was meant to be. Am sure if everyone was granted the opportunity to pick which family to be born into, so many parent will not smell children. Don't get me wrong I am not blaming my parents for my predicament but they did their best for me.
And like the lion in the diagram above, I have tried tiredly to improve my self and avoid rejection, prayed and gone some extra miles but the outcome seems to be un-changing. One way or the other my efforts still goes down the drain. I may appear good outwardly each day but this virus is killing me slowly.
Maybe I am not good enough? Maybe dreams don't come to pass or my case is naturally different? Or God has a better plan for me.....I have had countless numbers of the face in the picture above, and sometimes I encourage myself to move on or find a better place and people. Over two months I have sent several application email but all ended up in we are sorry, you were not selected. Got the two biggest rejection mails on job internship that I applied for, the last one I received weakened my bones but life has to go. The fear of rejection has always ended me up at the door step of #rejectiom .
Although I might be a reject but experience acquired through the process is my consolation price. Trust the process .