I have always been a planner, I love to have organization in my life. When things dont go as planned, I look at it as its just not meant to be. Maybe theres a better plan for me. Since you like to write , you could journal your feelings when your plans dont go as expected. Keep track that way and since our thoughts create our reality and outcome in our life. That way you could keep track of what your creating in your life. We are all in charge of our own happiness, it comes from within not from another person. You can always keep promises to yourself. I wish you the best!