All our lives there's not one moment that goes unplanned. Whether it be short or long term, we always think it out before acting upon it. Even having the thought of doing something and doing it just seconds later includes a plan on its own, a very instinctive one.
It might be a well coordinated scheme that took months of planning, maybe including a few other minds. It could be something just as simple as planning out your day ahead. Imaging the whole day in your mind before setting out, visualizing it, on how you plan on tackling the day, the week or months even(do people really do this or is it just me? hahaha)
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Now, one thing is for sure, not every plan will go our way. Heck, I bet most of it won't go our way. But what I'm really interested in today, is knowing what you do after your plans are all squandered. How one reacts, the steps taken after everything has so miserably failed. Days, months, years of planning and efforts, suddenly all down the drain, a good portion of it at least.
What would be your reaction to it all? What's the next step? Giving it another go? Maybe going with a different method this time, alongside a different team maybe, different surroundings even. Looking for flaws or finding what really went wrong in the previous process? Or straight up letting the past and its mistakes stay there and moving on with something new?
I ask these questions not only to write and post about it. I ask simply because I myself am looking for answers. I too am in this situation right now, to a degree. Most of what I write and post are usually inspired from my life and daily activities. Thoughts that I've piled up on my mind, thoughts that I have to "pen down" ASAP or that something inside me is going to keep on poking and drive me crazy. So, soon enough I end up sharing it all or posting about it somewhere.
This issue, the topic at hand has really been bugging me for the past two days. Up until this month of February it was simply a harmless itch, an itch which I was tolerating quite well. The type that would go away after you've ignored it for a good while. But now it's just becoming unavoidable and a serious matter.
Since things aren't going as planned. No progress is being made in this aspect and it has been a few months of being stuck in this exact spot, a dead end it feels like. Being patient, working out different ways, trying to speed up the process somehow. Yet, no distance is being covered. Hence, it is sometimes leading me to act or at least think ragefully. Making me question the whole process, inciting doubts, upon my own level of patience. Leading me to question my life choices and also my faith in humanity.
Sadly, the truth is, no matter how much you try to live according to your plans, a thing called "luck" just loves to interfere sometimes. Or maybe it's fate? "Fate" and how its all been written down from the start of human existence, from the day you were born yadayadayada.
Yet, sometimes I feel its non of these two mentioned above. I feel that sometimes its just our own kind who love to get in the way and unintentionally gate-keep. Making it tough for us to make any progress. People who love make promises, sweet talk into, give their word, but can never stay true it all when the time has come. Making up excuses and delaying it all further.
Not sure if its all done unknowingly or knowingly. Some people's actions and words just feel fake. Like they're sabotaging the little progress others have made or want to make. In the end, dragging down the ones who have been trying their level best, working towards something, hoping for that promise to be fulfilled. So that "the plan" can carry on and make further progress.
Sadly, every so often, things just don't seem to work out. Broken promises, shattered hopes and dreams, all the effort, time and work brought down towards failure.
Who or what is to blame here? I surely don't know, not yet at least.
