***"The truth is that stress doesn’t come from your boss, your kids, your spouse, traffic jams, health challenges, or other circumstances. It comes from your thoughts about your circumstances.” ― Andrew Bernstein
Last few weeks were quite challenging. I have been going through a lot of stress just because I am planning to start a fresh new chapter in life. It is kind of starting my life again. A life which was alwsys under the watchful eyes of my elders guided by my Dad. Now standing alone in the vast ocean, finding darkness everywherr. He was alwsys a torch bearer, but since he left us, I find it very difficult to make decision, especially when it comes to begining from scratch. I am missing him a lot, and now every situation appears to be challenging. But I alwsys look after him, to find a way out.
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Family comes first. This was alwsys been his priority in life. He was true example of humble human who knows how to raise the family. When I look back, I alwsys put up a question. how did he managed everything? I alwsys find him standing all the time. He is true role model. Just imagine, at times when there was no transportation or communication available, he moved out of the native village and started a family at a distant. Though it was his job that took him there, but begining everything from scratch with wife and children does take a toll on mind and body. He was alone, and still manages everything very nicely. From office to home to schooling to fooding to cloth and again not living his native village. He kept supporting his brothers too. He did that not once twice. Firstly, when he began his career, and then again when we shifted back to the capital city of India.
He never looked of his own comfort and alwsys been a source of others happiness. May be that is what alwsys been said in life. Get out of the comfort and begin afresh. Now I found myself standing in his shoes. I am in a similar position, and dwelling with myself to begin my life again. Last 6 years, I spent with him, solely depending on #hive and #farming. In village, we have limited scope of growth, considering there is not much oppurtunity. *Loan, farming, shops these are limited oppurtunity lying in the vicinity and I have good amount.of time to spend with. This makes me to make a move ahead in life. With all new begining.
Deep breaths, release stress.
Going back to Delhi is an open option, but balancing my village and work is not possible. As it is too far away. So I opted a smaller town nearby, which is a better place considering it has all the facilities available. But I never did these kind of begining before. I alwsys been under the guidance of my Dad. I never went out looking for accommodation or a home set up or other things. These new things keeping me under stress. I am moving slowly, one step at a time, making sure not to get panicked or make any mistake. Always getting inspire looking at my Dad journey.
When we start something new, stress is obvious, and I am dealing with it, just looking at my Dad and thinking, what he would have done in such situation. Hope he would be looking from.above and help me out with a better life.
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