The people we could not live without could actually live without us. Ouch what a sad reality is it not? Have you already come to realize that on your own? I wish I did long before I am realizing that now. I was counting on the fact that by becoming positive in mind and disposition I thought everything would be alright. I thought I was all loving and being inclusive. All forgiving and willing to give everyone a second chance because everyone deserves it. I realized that I was just too blind to see. I was disillusioned. I believed in something that I forced myself into believing. I finally figured it out that it helps if we learn to step back and see it from a different angle. Maybe it will make a difference.
Trying to be positive when everything is going south is just making myself believe in a lie that is of my own doing. I think that everyone changes, everyone has an agenda or a game plan. I let myself believe in a lie long enough that it drained my energy and suck up the life out of me. I got numb or confused in bleiving that it will be alright soon. I saw some signs but I ignored them and rationalized. People I gave my attention to are not deserving of it but I stayed blinded. I tried to understand and see it from another perspective and stick with it. I was wrong. I believe if I stick then they'd stick. If I remain they'd do the same. But not everyone has the same motive some can actually live without me and would not even feel bad about it.
