Fear of failure seems to have taken over again and prevents me from getting things done. I'm fully aware of the irrationality of this emotion... which makes it even harder to deal with it.
I've been struggling for a couple of weeks now. I have dozens of drafts, but can't seem to finish anything. And when I do finish something, I don't think it's good enough to publish it. Heck, I'll be surprised to see whether I do manage to finish this one. Even more surprised if it will ever see the light of day.
This is for sure not the first time I let fear of failure get the best of me... and unfortunately, it will probably not be the last time. But maybe it helps to write about it. It helped before....
It's just.... I don't know... I don't even know how to word it properly.
Jack Of No Trades
This last week, I've been actively following up on the new posts that are being published every day. To be honest, there's not a lot to see during European day time. All the action happens when I'm asleep.
Still, it seems there's a new pattern. (Which probably only exists in my head.) Either posts are really low-effort (the number of, for example, Dlike posts I see is huge), or they're really, really good.
I realize I'm by far not good enough to come even close to writing such a high-quality post.
You see... I'm not particularly good at anything. I know a little about a lot, but that's about it. On top of that, I'm not the best writer. Not the worst, either, I know that. But still...
I feel really intimidated by all those top notch posts I come across. So much, that I'm having a hard time convincing myself it is worth it to publish something I wrote.
I guess you're always your own worst critic, right?
Time For Action
But then again, he who does nothing can't do anything wrong - but doesn't get any further either.
So it's about time I pick myself up, and stop comparing myself to other people. No good has ever come from that. Believe me, I've got plenty of experience :0/
I hope that by publishing these ramblings, I will be able to break through that wall I've built in these last couple of weeks. And if not... at least I've tried...