I Died Many Times

Most people usually do not expect the degree of pain a heartbreak brings. When you have loved too much and gave too much, some people think it's unbearable. All it takes is to be strong, acknowledge the pain and move on.

I died, many times
I could lost count
When you ignored to see
Your attention was my air to breathe
Your affection I seldom found.

I died many times
But I still stayed
Hoping you would suddenly change
But change is elusive and unseen,
Hope was definitely away
And I felt alone in grief.

I died many times,
And when you chose another
I thought it was a phase
Anticipating you'll forget her
But it wasn't all a stage
It was all undeniably true
You just told me to forget you.

I died many times,
and I still continue dying
Again and again, life has wilted
When my soul keeps crying
You struck the sharpest knife
A blade that wouldn't move so deep
Inside I'm fleeting away
The core of my spirit weeps.

I died and died,
Yet life comes back to me
Each time I see you
It begins again unknowingly
Crushing me within
Love remains a curse
To die and live without you
I wouldn't know what's worse.

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