The lamp was still on, although its tulip-shape cover was rusty, the rest was shining from wiping. With dim light gently lying on his face, he had stayed in bed for the whole night, or, more precisely, the whole week. There was no phone calls, no text messages, only door bell rang every noon to inform him that the junk food he ordered from the internet had arrived.
He opened wechat and saw a girl’s profile picture, below which the system message read “you have added her as a friend, now you can talk to her. ” He typed “hi beauty”, then he deleted it and retyped “Hey, old school !”, he deleted it again, in the end he typed a “hello” and sent it over. There was no response of course, who would console an insomniac this late?
He got up from the bed and went beside the window. It was quite warm in Hainan province at this time of the year, although new year’s eve was coming, there was little sense of coldness. The moon was shining like daytime, bicycles, electrombiles were scattered in the cramped alley, not far away, Wanda shopping mall had been closed, with LED lights still glittering. He took out a cigarette and lighted it, the smoke was turning round and round, through it, the world looked perfect.
At the corner lay his guitar, seldom played lately. He smiled, remembering old times when he was popular among girls in college. They admired him when he sang that beautiful song while playing guitar: “Your eyes are like green jade lake, you dream of shining stars.”
He was the first to get into college in his village, he came to Shanghai with the hope and proud of all his people, only discovered that he was way behind in every aspect compared to his cosmopolitan classmates, who were brought up in big cities.
After graduation, he was assigned to a small research lab in a small town, with a salary of 3000 yuan per month. As the eldest son in his family, he saved up most of his income and sent them back home. As he got older, all his colleagues were getting married, he moved back to Hainan province at the strong request of his parents. He thought he should find a job easily, at least he was a college graduate, but when companies heard he was a physics major, they all hesitated: What can you do with a physics major? We don’t need someone to do research.
He was unemployed for a month, two months and now a year and half. With no job offerings, he started to help him family to grow rubber trees, just like all the other villagers did. People were gossiping, what’s the use to go to college? His depression grew worse when his mother fell down from a serious disease. Where to get the money? he was nonplussed over it. He told his family he was going to get some food for New Year’s Eve, then he left home with a few hundred dollars.
Actually, the excuse was part of his scheme. Leaving home cheerfully, let the other people think he really was going to go shopping. He got himself a cheap hostel room in a small alley not far from Wanda shopping mall. The first day, he bought a pack of pistachio. In order to buy this pack of pistachio, he searched very corner of the mall, however, his real intention was the pistachio, but to locate where the cameras were. He had to figure out very single route to make sure his plan worked in the end.
Now he had chose the crime scene, all he need to do now was getting the prop and waiting for the right time. I don’t know where he gets the idea, but he thought camera records would disappear after seven days. And tonight was the last night, tomorrow, when shopping mall opened, he shall start and execute the plan. He nipped the cigarette with his fingers, picked up his guitar and played his favorite song 《Cinderella》.
The following morning, when everything was ready, he set off. He went into a lift in the shopping mall, on reaching the third floor, he flapped the door as if the door was broken, when the lift stopped, he walked out anxiously and shouted to a janitor :”Hey, tell your manger, this lift goes wrong.” He walked pass the junior, turned around and went into the emergency exit, where there was no cameras.
Two days later, he was found dead on the emergency exit stairs, choked to death by a piece of nylon rope. At a distance of a few stairs lied his wallet, apparently being robbed, there was fighting trace all over the place, so he was announced to be murdered. The managers of Wanda shopping mall were so worried because it’s obvious shopping season, reputation was more than anything, they offered compensation money to his family wishing they wouldn’t tell the incident all around.
However, the case was questioned when video records from seven days ago revealed his apparent strange behavior. Moreover, a young detective discovered there was a small piece of rope coiled around the water pipe in the emergency exit, which indicated his suicide.
His plan didn’t work as he planed, on the contrary, it brought overwhelming sadness to his family, especially the mother, who was dying from illness and now had to suffer from something even worse. She had rather died for his son.
They took his body home to hold a small funeral for him. The following day, his brother received a phone call saying that he had win a lottery which worth 6 million dollars.
Author’s words: Last year, just before the new year’s eve, my college classmate Mr. Wang died from suicide, on the following day after his funeral, his brother won a lottery. So I want to dedicate this article to him, wish him good luck in heaven.
夹在床头的灯还亮着。郁金香形状的灯罩边沿生了锈，没有生锈的部分被擦得铮亮，隐隐晃动的灯光温柔得照在他的脸上，他就那样没有表情的躺了一个晚上，确切的说，是一个星期。这一个星期里，没有手机铃声，没有短信提示音，每天只有中午的时候，有外卖上门，送上一些乱七八糟的地沟油做出的食物。
他试着打开微信，看了看两个月前加的女生的微信，上面显示着系统写的信息：你们已经是好友了，现在可以开始聊天了。他试着打了个“美女你好”，想了想退了回去，又打了个“老同学”，又退了回去，最后打了个“hello”，点击发送。对方没有回复，夜静悄悄，谁会在网络另一端安抚一个无心睡眠的灵魂？
他起身走到窗口，海南的冬天特别的暖，虽然还有几天就是新年了，却感觉不到丝毫寒冷，月亮如昼，狭窄潮湿的小巷子里稀稀拉拉的摆放着自行车，电动车，小三轮，再往前眺望，万达商场已经关门了，LED彩灯却仍着闪烁不停。他从大衣内侧口袋里取出一包烟，抽出一根点燃，一圈圈的烟雾升腾缭绕，粉饰太平。
角落处有一只斜躺着的吉他，已经有很久没有弹奏了，他笑了笑，想到了大学联欢会，他也曾风光过，被女生所仰慕，她们喜欢看他边弹边唱的样子：“湖水是你的颜色，梦想满天星辰。”
他是他们村唯一一个考上重点大学的，他带着全村人的希望和骄傲来到大上海，却发现自己连英语四级都过不了，他说，我从来没有听过英语啊，老师也不会读。慢慢的，他发现，不仅是英语，自己在各方面都比别人差远了，后来他才知道，很多内地的考生会高考移民，海南是他们的首选，因为这边教育质量不行，跟这边的学生竞争，考上的概率大。
毕业后他被分配到了安徽下面的一个研究所，每个月工资3000块。省吃俭用的他把大部分钱都寄到了家里供养弟弟妹妹和生病的父母。眼看年龄越来越大，周围的同事都相继成婚，在爸妈的要求下，他辞了职回到了海南。他以为以他重点大学的身份，找一份糊口的工作应该不是太难，可人家一听他是物理系毕业的，第一反应都是：我们不需要搞科研的！
转眼一年多过去了，找不到工作的他，开始在家里帮忙种橡胶，然而经济不好，每年收益不过几千块，村里人的态度从羡慕到不屑，上学有什么用，还不是得回来种地。饱受争议的他在妈妈的重病下彻底抑郁了，哪里有钱给妈妈治病呢？眼看年关了，作为长子的他，一筹莫展。他拿了几百块钱，跟爸妈说他要去城里置办点年货。
其实，这只是他天衣无缝计划的一个开始，喜气洋洋的出门，让村里人都以为他要去置办年货。他在离万达不远的一个偏僻巷子里找了一间廉价旅店，第一天，他去万达买了一包开心果。为了买这包开心果他逛遍了整个商场，其实他不是在找开心果，他是在找摄像头，商场到处都是摄像头，他需要计划他行走的每一条路，确保它们不会留下蛛丝马迹。
最终他确定了作案的地方，现在需要的做的就是买道具和等待。看电影不多的他天真的以为所有的录像七天后会自动消失。今天就是第七天了，明天一早，等商店开门，他就会按计划实施。掐灭烟头，他拿起吉他，上了消音器，静静地弹了一曲《灰姑娘》，然后倒头睡了。
第二天一早，他把买好的道具塞进大衣口袋里，带上帽子出门了。他一进来就直接进了电梯间，在第三层的时候，故意拍打开门按钮，其实并未触摸，在摄像机看来似乎电梯出了故障，最后门开后，他对着一个清洁工大喊，这个电梯坏了，快找你们经理报告一下。他快速得走出电梯间，转个弯，直入安全通道，进去之前，他用余光看了下摄像头。
两天后，商场工作人员发现他被勒死在安全通道里。钱包在离他不远的几个台阶处，里面是空的。现场有明显打斗痕迹，勒死他的尼龙绳还在颈上。万达商场的领导层急了，眼看到了旺季，不想出了条人命案，以后谁还敢来购物，于是想私了，给家属赔偿20万。
然而就在这时，案子出现了很多马脚。首先，七天前的录像被调出来了，录像显示受害人表现出怪异行为，其次，有一位年轻的警官在安全通道排水管深处看到一段栓着的绳子，断处明显是刀割过的，与受害人脖颈处的尼龙绳是同一根，于是他被认为为自杀。家属自然不接受论断，明明大儿子出去购置年货，然而在事实面前，他们无言以对。
他的枉死并没有给生病的妈妈带来任何益处，除了伤心和绝望。家人带回了他的尸体，三日之后将他下葬，同时埋葬了他们所有的骄傲。
第二天，他弟弟接到了一个电话，告诉他他前几天买的彩票中奖了，奖金680万。
后记：去年年前，我大学同学王某某在海南万达安全通道自杀，其下葬第二天弟弟中彩票600多万，此文系据此事而作，愿同学在天堂安好，人间没有无奈。
