Good day everyone!
It's been a while here, I will be sharing my perspective about life as I feel it is worth sharing.
Life can be funny at times, you tend to blame someone because you feel they should have done better and then find yourself in the same mess. If I had known better I would have comforted people more rather than showing them what they could have done better. While growing has a child I watched my mom struggled to raise three girls alone. She was a teacher, so all we depended on was her salary, every of our burden was on her and she never complained. She was the first child of her mother and her siblings too were looking up to her. Sometimes I complained that she wasn't looking too good, we are not eating well maybe because I was very small then and I just did not allow her explain things to me. She became a shadow of herself at a point when the banks and cooperatives she was getting loans from kept disturbing her. When the banks started calling me I was surprised and questioned her why she was getting loans and what she was using it for. It looked so great to see how I was lecturing her that loan was meant for investors and not for unyielding purposes. I was lecturing her that she should have cut her coat according to her material.
Hmmm... I promised myself never to take loans. When I started working there was no support from family again and as a young career lady I needed money to support my retired mom and my business and my salary wasn't enough, I had to take loan then the reality was done on me. My mom had logs of loans to keep the family going, she was in debt because of her love for her children and her family but she never got the comfort she needed when everything was getting back at her.
A similar experience was on the aspect of love relationship, My friend suffered heart break when a guy she spent nine years dating later left her for a lady that was traveling abroad. She told me of what she sacrificed for the guy and I was so angry within me that she acted foolishly and asked if she was drugged. "My people if something never do you no think say you be Jackie Chan oo".
When it was my turn, I did not only fall, my hope was shattered. It was sweet all along, we both gave our all in the relationship but I'm alone after everything. I could hear how I was called "stupid" from the mouth of someone we both made promise of forever. Anytime I remembered my friend and how l was hurt too, I cried the more.
Life has a way of humbling your ego and teaching lessons that the memory can never be erased.
Thanks for stopping by.
