Recently, I’ve struggled with my health. Not that it’s a new thing but it’s something I’ve tried to endure and downplay simply because I’ve been a strong fan of “what will be will be” - There is a thing about what I believe will happen and what actually happens. However I don’t know how long my believes can hold as some days are different from the others.
Maybe not today, Maybe not tomorrow and maybe not next month… I’d be champion one day!
These were the words of Brandon Moreno, a popular fighter that eventually became a UFC champion. Those words have been ringing through my mind for weeks now. I think at some point everything will be fine, but it seems too long.
In this moment I look at how things have been for the last three years, it currently isn’t better but a lot of progress. Never even thought I’d survive this far. But here I am reflecting and still complaining about my health as though it couldn’t have been worse.
Life feels better when our health is aligned. There is this “anything can happen” thoughts that run through my head.
Soon!
Yeah I think soon, someday, it’s all going to be alright. Someone on Hive once wrote to me
Well, you're definitely going to die at some stage, maybe tonight in your sleep, maybe you'll be eaten by a crocodile next week or maybe you'll live a long life; that's the thing, a person never knows.
Here's the other thing though, your fear and worry about your death is unhealthy and is holding you back from having a fulfilled life, so you might be best to shift your thinking.
I key into this because I’m not one to be scared or worried but I’ve been unnecessarily scared sometimes. These days I spend my time playing chess, writing or watching movies. I’m even scared of sleeping sometimes (even though I barely sleep normally) . But yeah I think now it’s going to get better soon! Very soon!
Took a picture of the frame I’m staring at to write this post :)