Defeated / Another lost battle
"You told me you were going to stop"
She says while I lay
defeated
on the floor,
"I believed...
I trusted you!"
But
what can i say?
Because sadly I did too.
I don't know why
I am doing this to myself.
The cicle never seems to stop,
the circle
just
go
on
and on.
The guilt,
it kills,
the mind never gives a break,
forever it goes
"If only
you
were
stronger".
If only I was stronger,
there will be
no more pain,
no more hurt.
But I am not
strong enough
to fight
even when it is
for my own sake.
So here, while my tears
run until dry,
I close my eyes
and go far, far away
to that time
long, long ago
where I didn't knew what It was.
And I think that
if there was a time where It
didn't exist in my life
I'll hold on tight to the
hope
that there will come a day
where IT is no longer
here
with
me.