Natural state of mine - jumping on the bandwagon and falling off the bandwagon. #Guiltypleasure
And this time, I ought to change. & I’m hoping I won’t sabotage myself again(?)
I’ll start off with a lengthy summary of what has been brewing within me.
I took a loooooooong time off to check in with myself to fully deal with my inner issues and to have some clarity of what I ought to do & be to feel purposeful. I have switched from one ambition/goal/dream and etc as fast as lightning strikes and it dies equally fast.
So, I thought to myself what is it with me that makes me have a hard time committing to one and at times, beat myself up hard. I am one to not delay decisions and this really stirred chaos on a daily basis (mentally mostly).
But thanks to my unconventional father 
Here is Part 1 of what I learned about myself:-
Each individual’s dominance in a certain segment varies. The test consists of a series of questions totalling to 28 questions.
As for me, influencer and being compliant is highly embedded in me. From the influencer, I found that I am fond of people and compliance meant that I favour accuracy, precision and perfection. At most times I am skeptical of personality tests, but this test really speaked out to me (you know that feeling you get, where you’re just mindblown?)
An analysis on this test and the memories I had from age 0 to 12 were then paired up together. And voila, as simple as it sounds I found clarity (it took me a few sessions to reach to this state however!)
Though may not be fully established, but I can finally say I am quite relieved! ❤️
To be continued.....
