It took an unbelievably long series of internal dialogue to finally be doing this, but better late than never eh?
I’ve been away from Hive for a very long time, but I’ve always had plans of coming back and with a somewhat more normal name. I’m back sooner than I had planned though. Because according to plan, I should be coming back with a fuck ton of Hive Power. But…I miss this place. The community, the clarity that writing gave me, and my friends. So the plan has been fast-tracked. Or whatever you want to call this situation.
The time I’ve been away has been a mix of some of the most exciting experiences I've ever had, and hitting what I believe is the lowest low I’ve ever seen, in the beginning of this year. After that period - which I obviously came out on top of because I’m a hard fucker to take down - I’ve been searching for something that I have concluded is a desire to create and have my creation perceived in a way that only a niche group of people here have proven to have the capacity of. The closest thing I’ve found to that has been Reddit. But even Reddit is missing a little something I still can’t quite put my finger on.
The first few weeks after I joined Hive, I developed an addiction that would have me spend almost my entire day here despite being a final year student. And I loved every second of it. Every interaction gave me a joy the magnitude of which couldn’t be explained. Couple of months in, and that high faded. After a year, although I was still here, I didn’t enjoy being here nearly as much as before, and I wondered if that excitement would ever return. In fact, with the complications that kept unravelling after I graduated, I genuinely believed I wouldn’t. But now, writing this post, I am more excited than ever to be writing again because once again, my life circumstance puts me in a place where I’ll be doing it simply for the love of it. I might not post as much but what is for sure is that I'll enjoy everything and everyone I engage with.
