A Whole New Loop that Taught Me

The moment I came to see the pattern, I came to realize that I needed to wake up and let the days pass by as if nothing has happened, I came to a point where I needed to listen to my own depletion,
The moment I came to see the pattern, I came to see that I needed something left for what I am left to become, in order to retain the most valuable part of me from the beginning,
The moment I came to see the pattern, I came to see the knowledge that I needed to go deeper than this, I know I am beyond perfect, I still need to learn a lot from myself, my own limits, my own boundaries,
The moment I came to see the pattern, I came to see that I still have too much to give as long as the space allows me to, as long as I am appreciated for who I am, as long as I know I am valued,
The moment I came to see the pattern, I came to see that some spaces, some areas, some circumstances are already beyond my control, some things that I couldn’t possibly understand are just left the way they are…

I couldn’t possibly give up on myself, of course I wouldn’t do that because I am not that way to begin with, but something in me clicked at an instant that my world has a lot to create, to give and to give,
I couldn’t possibly give up on myself, despite all the limitations my life has given me, I still manage to be open to a whole new set of possibilities that could come my way that I couldn’t possibly even imagine,
I couldn’t possibly give up on myself, I’ve been crushed to my limits, beyond what I could give, but still I came to realize a lot of ways in order for my mind to function from a different kind of perspective,
I couldn’t possibly give up on myself, I keep circling around my mind’s ways in order to cope with the system, in order to solve the unsolvable, but still it came at an instant, all connected to a loop,
I couldn’t possibly give up on myself, a whole new loop again of new ways to survive, new ways to see life with a bigger picture of strength in failure, now who knows, a much bigger chance to share my world with more people…

So go ahead and stay in the fantasy, if that is the definition of sanity, if that brings you deeper meaning to life ahead of you, everything in here is beyond fine, I could imagine a whole new life that I’m willing to take these uncertain chances,
So go ahead and stay in the fantasy, if that is what defines your peace and your definition of warmth and home, your road to control, your road to hope and to life’s connection,
So go ahead and stay in the fantasy, if this is a rewritten perspective you needed to adapt to, let it be in your world, anyway time will help me analyze survivability, time will help me become a whole, new different person,
So go ahead and stay in the fantasy, if this is what you needed in order to keep you fighting for your life, beyond what you could see, beyond what you could understand, and beyond what you can accept what this is,
So go ahead and stay in the fantasy, if this way could possibly help me analyze timing, could possibly help me analyze resilience, let it be, travel this path ahead without rushing…

Now I’m preparing myself to submit to a kind of uncertainty, in order to help me build again, build a whole new life that begins with a wound so I can clearly define my absolute fears,
Now I’m preparing myself to submit to a kind of uncertainty, walk to my deepest dreams while keeping me grounded to my own setback in order to start all over again with humility to begin with,
Now I’m preparing myself to submit to a kind of uncertainty, I’m ready to say my name aloud, accepting me and my flaws, accepting the ways I could possibly improve more, accepting that I am who I am, willing to share and extend,
Now I’m preparing myself to submit to a kind of uncertainty, I know now what I can endure, I know now what I want, I know now that life is beyond what you’re willing to accept, but it is about deviating from your own patterns that prevent your collapse,
Now I’m preparing myself to submit to a kind of uncertainty, I will wake up with pure clarity that everything has its purpose that only you can understand, once a puzzle is now a much deeper knowing that once in your life, you have created your own destiny…

Watchwords:
Seeing the pattern before the collapse
Knowing when I have given enough
Refusing to give up on myself
Finding strength inside the uncertainty
Creating my own destiny through what I survive