It's foolish but I wish I could back to that time. And the time when I was not in near constant pain. The worst years of my life are from when I bot a computer and a smartphone. To be fair if I was healthy in body I would probably not think that. At the least I would have some thoughts about things that I could do and places I could go see. Now? That all seems impossible. I've never been "well" so I am just fantasizing. I sit here in this chair every night - for over 6 years now. Haven't gone out at night once. it's a pretty pathetic end.