It's been years since you last surfaced. How have you been? I know you've been through a lot. Are you still hurting? I am well aware of your agonizing past. Are you still blaming others? 'Coz I'm well informed about the decisions you made.
Everyone believed you do not care, including me. We thought that whatever they slap towards you, you'll be fine and all the happiness you showed are genuine and true.
Girl why didn't you tell them? How can it be so hard to share your thoughts? You know they'll listen. You are not alone, they've been telling you that. How can you be so secretive? When will you start talking to real people? They've been doing their best to reach out to you, try accepting the hands and shoulders they're offering.
You're almost at the age of adulthood. Are you still holding up? Girl be strong for you still have a long, long way to go. There are a lot of people on earth who have greater issues than you and some of them are the ones you called friends. You needn't to hurt yourself physically to divert your feelings, just tell them what you feel, don't be afraid , look how they handle their own issues. You are not a toddler anymore.
We all know that you are not worthy of your pain. I too am feeling the emptiness you've been feeling since the first time you're curious of his name. Yes! I know, you are curious not only for his name but also for his appearance. Girl don't be shy, show it. It won't kill you, what kills the person is their hidden desire to know the truth. It is not a sin to seek for his love nor imagine what it would be like to feel his hug, the sin here my friend is when you get insecure of what you do not have.
I know writing is your one way of expressing yourself, well, this time try not to hide your identity for it is your time to destroy your demons with the help of this community.
I hope by reading this letter you'll be illuminated because you see I made this letter for you are the current me.
