I'm always in the background
Of everyone else's existence
Every time I try to get close
They say they need some distance
Everyone just tolerates me
They don't want me around
I realize now that they all hate me
I am just the clown
No one really wants me
No one really cares
They don't have the guts to confront me
They just stand and stare
I'm not even a supporting actor
Then they wonder why my soul grows blacker
I just want to matter
To somebody somewhere
I am not okay
I'm living a lie
I try to act like I am happy
When no one's there I cry
There's always something burning
Deep inside my brain
Maybe I'm the normal one
And they're all insane
I know I'm far from normal
That's just who I am
I don't even know why I'm writing this
No one gives a damn
I'm not even a supporting actor
Then they wonder why my soul grows blacker
I just want to matter
To somebody somewhere
It's time to become the director
To be the one who leads the lecture
Be the king and raise my scepter
High into the air
