To be honest, I am tired of some men feeling like showing a bit of emotion as a human being makes them feel weak, so they try to toughen up or at least act like it, when deep down all they want is to be cuddled while being whispered some assuring words.
For a while now a neighbor of mine, who had made his intentions clear on wanting to move out of the building, has been stylishly trying to see if he could get me and someone else to move out with him. He won't say this, but the reason for that is because he's a bit scared of having to move to a different hostel all alone and then begin the process of trying to make friends from scratch.
Whereas if we moved with him, that entire process would be made ten times easier because he would have us there as friends and wouldn't really be bothered about the new guys. But rather than come clean and be honest with us about the situation, he would prefer not to and would instead just constantly give us reasons why we all have to move out ASAP, almost as if the building might collapse soon if we don't.
And then there's another guy who's moving away not because he wants to but because he doesn't have a choice (his family helped him get a job in a different state). If it was up to him, we all know he would have rejected the job offer, even though he likes to pretend that he's glad that he's going away.
If you're wondering how I might know about him not truly wanting to leave, well, he was expected to resume the new job about a week ago but has just constantly been giving one excuse after another to his family on why he can't travel yet. But the true reason is that he doesn't want to leave because of how much he knows he would miss this place.
But wouldn't the world be a nicer place if we got men who know how to be honest with themselves and express themselves better? I say that because I also happen to be among those men who like to hide how they truly feel and would rather pretend not to feel anything at all, just not to show too much emotion.
It sometimes sucks, and I will be lying to you if I say that there haven't been times when I wished I was a bit more open with how I feel.
