I've always been someone who prefers to be in his comfort zone while also aware that in order to be somebody in life, you do have to get out of your comfort zone occasionally. But I try not to if I don't have to and would mostly only do it when I see that the next step of my life requires me to.
Well, I've gotten to that next step of my life, and for the last couple of days I've had this thought linger in my mind, asking me if I'm going to be okay.
The truth is I know I'm going to be okay, but then when I remember the kind of person I am, the kinda guy who prefers to be quiet and observant when in unfamiliar territory, I get this little doubt in my mind on if I'm going to do okay or not.
I graduated three years ago, and usually after graduating, the next step would be to participate in a one-year government program where the first three weeks of that one year would be spent in a camp with total strangers, and you guys get to do all sorts of activities and all that.
Well, it's finally time for me to go do all of that; I actually will be traveling for it in two days. The good news is that I got sent to a state not far away from where I live currently, making everything a lot easier for me. The bad news, though, is that I will be spending the next three weeks surrounded by strangers every second.
I was excited about it before, but as the day gets closer, I find myself feeling like I don't want to do it anymore. Not like I have a choice, though, because choosing not to do it would be me choosing to be disowned by everyone in both my nuclear and extended family, because this was a joint task force.
They (the whole family) had to bring up the discussion in the general group chat some time last year, where they all placed me in the middle of all these questions, asking me if I truly graduated. Why don't I want to go for the service? And all that.
So, the only option left for me is putting all my worries aside and just going for this thing. Give it my best for twenty-one days, mingle, make friends, and just try to have fun while at it.
Hopefully it all goes well.
