What's happening inside me?

Hi there hive community Hive account@penflecto is back , Are guys fine? Is everything okay? Well, I'm asking these type of questions because I'm concern about everybody's mental health.

I deeply apologize for not being able to publish any content this past few days, the reason behind not publishing any content is because I'm dealing with my mental health which is kinda difficult for me.

This blog will be about dealing with my mental health, I decided to create a content and publish it here because I have no one to talk to and express the heavy negativities inside that I've been carrying for a long time.

Just a reminder that this blog is not about negativity.

What's happening inside me?

Have you ever tried having confusion with yourself? I don't really understand what going on with my mind, I'm so confused, I'm not happy nor sad I just feel like I'm empty inside, this past few days I often find myself crying for no reason, worried about the things that don't exist, I feel like my mentality is starting to fell apart, my courage and determination towards my goals is disappearing.

Am I depress ?

Well, to be honest, I don't really know if I'm depress or something, I just feel hopeless, I feel like giving up, I wanna eliminate something inside me, I wanted to have light in my heart and mind. There is this something that is growing inside my mind that I really want to get rid of.

Am I having a mental breakdown?

Well, I think I'm a having a mental breakdown, I used to have a solid heart back then. I think I'm extremely sad because even my passions and habits can't make me happy anymore. Now I learned that even person with a golden retriever energy can be tired, feel weak, and hopeless. I now believe Itachi Uchiha's saying from Naruto which says "everything that exist has weakness. And I guess my mental health is my weakness.

What is the purpose of having a mental breakdown?

In my point of view, having a mental breakdown is part of growing up, mental breakdown is vital to us humans in order to become more stronger. Mental breakdown is a process of maturity, it is also a preparation for something negative. It is okay to have a mental breakdown so that when bad days come we are ready, prepared and immune to it.

To those who are having a mental breakdown, please find someone to talk to and if you don't have someone you can freely express your feelings here in hive like what I did, your mental health is your treasure please take care of it as it is your source of strength.

Thank you God for giving me the strength to handle such horrible days like this without you I am nothing and also thank you so much for this community because I am able to express my emotions which made me calm and relax.