From Death to Deathlessness #22-Q2
Bhagwan, you said that your sannyasins are not jealous, but now I am experiencing just the opposite. it almost makes me laugh. and most of all I am jealous and possessive about you. What to do?
There is nothing to be done. You can be jealous and possessive of me as much as you want... because I am not here!
You can hug the empty chair, kiss the empty chair, do whatever you want. There is no need to be worried. I died thirty-three years ago, the day I became enlightened. Since then I am absent. How can you possess somebody who is absent? How can you be jealous of somebody who is not here?
In fact your jealousy about me and your possessiveness about me will be helpful.
Why are you jealous of me? -- because you see something in me that is missing in you. And that is what I am doing every day, trying to wake you up to the fact that you are missing something. I was also missing it once, but now I don't want you to miss it.
It is perfectly good to be jealous of an enlightened man, because that means you have fallen in love with enlightenment.
And be possessive, there is no problem. If you possess the whole sky -- what is the problem? Just don't possess small things. Possessing the whole sky, you will think you are possessing it -- in fact the reality is just the opposite. The sky is possessing you from every side, and there is no way to escape from the sky's possession.
I possess you. And you cannot escape!
Even if you go to Santa Fe, I am there.
One of my sannyasins, Niranjana, was in Santa Fe. She had made a beautiful house. That was her whole life's dream, to make a house according to her own ideas. She is rich enough, and just now her father has died so she has become even richer. She has inherited immense businesses, corporations.... She made a really beautiful house. But she was the only sannyasin there.
A few camels have also reached -- they are ex-sannyasins. Naturally, Niranjana was meeting with those people and they were meeting with her. Once you are a sannyasin, you can never be an ex-sannyasin. Only in language can you be. But she got fed up with those ex-sannyasins, dropped her beautiful house, and is living in New York now. And she has informed me, "You are more present in Santa Fe than in Rajneeshpuram, because all those camels who have left continuously talk about you."
Perhaps they talk against me; that does not matter. Whether you talk for me or against me, just keep talking about me -- and you are in my possession!
There is no place on this earth -- or on any other planet -- where you can escape from me. The day I disappeared I have become the whole sky.
So baby, don't be worried!
