I mentally ream myself for not being smart enough or good enough, and therefore tell myself I'm nothing but a failure

Someone told me to no succumb to the voice in my head that keeps making me see myself in a negative. He said to give myself prep talks in front of my mirror every morning, he even went as far as writing some positive affirmations for me as well. I have tried it a few times, maybe you can too.

I fear going through the rest of my life alone, even though I have a son. I have so much love to give, hidden deep inside me, but fear of the past keeps me from giving myself a chance to find someone who is meant to be in my life.

I completely understand how you feel. But, you'll never know if you do not try again. Only this time, you'd be more attentive, so you can the spot the red flags before you go all in. You'll be okay, I promise. We'll just do life one day at time. We'll face our fears one at a time and we will overcome them. The best partner will find you in due time.

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