I guess you are right. But what's the point of living when everytime reminds you of how utterly far from where you want to be is? Or how there's this constant thought throbbing in a way, at the back of your mind that makes you restless. Tbh, I slept better when I was in school. Cause then, I didn't really put much effort into working. I just focused on school and hive night time and I slept whenever and however cause at school i hardly read novels, so I wasn't really occupied. But at home, I want to do everything Ive starved myself of and I think I'm drowning in it