The hours in a day move faster now, I can't seem to get a decent amount of time to just...be. Enjoy a hobby before time skips away like a frog on holiday. Speaking of holidays, it's been two months plus since I've been at home for break and while I've been very satisfied and happy, I haven't accomplished or really performed any of my hobbies. I haven't drawn, I've hardly seen any anime. Well, not including animated series, I rewatched the avatar: the last Airbender series, Pantheon and I ended up watching K-pop demon hunters it's like the days just keep moving by, and although I am locked in where I currently work at, I hardly have spare time. I think procrastination and doom scrolling might actually be part of the issue here or I am just quite busy and exhausted. I have just a month left before I have to go to school. And whilst my plan for it has been backfiring on me, I decided that I will take a week or two off and just...be free. But then, what's the point of rest and the holiday if I can't even raise a few bucks by myself just because I wanted to relax.
I decided it was stupid and got to work immediately at the beginning of August. I doubt it'll exceed a week or some few days—this said break I'd decided to ultimately give myself. I'm very doubtful. I'm trying to lock in, I need the money and eventually, when I get it, and I'm finally comfortable, I can relax, glow and be happy. And this time, I'd be doing all that atleast financially stable for a teenager.
That just came out, I didn't mean to drift too far. I'd been stalling on writing reviews on some few things. Whilst I'm actively working elsewhere, I realized that I am slacking too much here. And I dislike it, I feel like a different version here. I feel like part of so much more. If that makes any sense.
And the holiday did bring me closer to some books in my tbr that I'd been stalling. I have read a total of 12 books since I've been at home. I love to sleep, love it so much, but there isn't lot of hours in the day anymore. It's going so fast, infuriatingly so.
And yet, I'm just glad I can eat without a budget. Preparing meals in college was affecting my soul. Sometimes, I'd just willing starve because for some reasons the kitchen decided to be far away.
This is me wondering where time is. Why it's going the way it's going. Why can't I pick up or meet up? What am I doing wrong. I'm almost done with the second book in the series and even though, it's taking some of my time—I don't mind. I don't regret. I don't know why I texted half of that I just did..I opened my notepad with the intention of writing a review and somehow, ended up here. Weird.
Thanks for reading.