Because we present taste
Birds chirping seemed to make me dance, even though I know today everything has been different. The person who has always been my reason for smiling has now disappeared from the colors of my life. I am like a bird separated from thousands of other birds, trying to survive in the misunderstanding of this mortal world. As if lifeless, I started my life without the warmth of his arms, his smile, and without his voice that always makes me smile even though I don't want to smile. It turns out that taste is something that makes me as if it were falling in the rain in the sun, makes me like a rose that starts to wilt and turn black, makes my heart break to pieces without explanation.
The first day I passed without significant enthusiasm, my small footsteps also seemed unable to stand anymore. Step by step I live without a smile, even though the sun invites me to dance, but I still with my face that no man's land, oh God .. what does it feel to lose ?. "Ra ... Rara !!" the voice was clearly heard in my ears, but I ignored. I hate that voice. "Rara! Still want to avoid me? " the voice I hated was approaching until I felt the soft touch of his hand touch me, I tried not to see it. Even just looking at him, I was reluctant. "Sorry, I didn't mean to avoid it. I need time to be alone, understand! " my steps quickly left him and away from him. really, really, I could not see it in front of me so tightness this chest saw it. Without my care anymore, I also let my feet invite to stay away from him even though I knew, the decision that I had taken made him disappointed, but ... never mind, I'm sure this is the best. Day after day more and more passionate, I began to feel a very deep saturation with circumstances like this, how not? .. Day after day as if so fast, without me going through it again with that person. Although I know that I have decided not to be with him anymore, but now I realize that I miss him. I miss his presence, his smile, his laughter, his joke even spoiled crying when I was with me.
The night has been colder since that day, the daytime weather is even hotter than usual, and the morning is more quiet without the accompanying birdsong. I breathe the aroma of coffee in my pink cup, in the rain tonight I miss him more. Suddenly my cellphone vibrated, I lyrics my cellphone and I found the name that adorned the screen of this tiny red colored cellphone. "Rara, I miss you ... I need you here, do you also feel what I feel? Please reply, Ra. Set aside your time for a moment to reply to my sms. I love you." I really want to reply, but what hand power did not reach ... I still silently read it, "I miss you too, I love you more than you know, Dam ..." I was only able to reply to a short message in my heart, hoping he was able to hear what I said that. My determination is still strong, I will continue to keep my distance from this person, maybe slowly I will leave his life.
Dozens of short messages came from him without even a single reply I gave, I don't know ... maybe he was more stiff than a rock so whatever I did to him, he still ignored it and still tried to approach me. I'm sure he is still one of the people I can fight for, but behind it all I still have a lot of deep disappointment, I want to erase it but still can't. All the effort he showed me would still not change my decision, I knew.
"Whatever it is, every painful taste, will not be able to make a pleasant taste like before ..."