I still hold the red novel with the title "The Last Tears of the Mother". Tears that kept falling as if they did not want to stop crying over his departure. If time is spinning slower, I would love to understand every line of words that you say. "Mother, your love will never defeat the star that shines on the sky. Unlike the full moon that adorns the months in space, you are more than anything that exists ".
Women who are often forgotten. Its form as a leaf. Her uterus gives birth to humans means, even though she is sometimes not interpreted anymore. A strong figure who receives his line does not seek, sue or hold the husband accountable for the lives of all his children. A mother is only a teardrop tracker who carries out the history of wounds, grief and anything that often makes her cry. Women can be as soft as silk, cool and clear as dew with love. Men who often blow away pass after they miss the woman (the leaf) until the leaves turn yellow, dry, trying to survive hanging with their stems. Paired with thin branches. The wind just came to blow it. Tightening his breath rather than longing for more, only to the extent that he left after the leaf had to fall to a fragile earth stepped on.
"Come on, catch me. Catch mom ". "Hahahaha, watch you guys. If you catch it, you eat your mother. Hihihihihi. "Aaaahhh mother, awwwww sakit tahu". "Mother here, look here. I got something mom ". "Arghhhh kaka, ibuuuuu". "Hahahahaha". We are very happy, I love them very much. For me to live with them without my father I have enjoyed it very much. I really hate fathers who prefer to live with them than to be with me, rena and mother.
My mother is a great woman. Raising us with love that is like water in the sea that will never end. The seductive woman only enjoyed her life with the abundant treasure that Father gave. I don't need all that because there is a mother beside me. My name is Yara, I'm still in high school. I worked part time in a mini market near my house. If later I have worked and have enough money, I will never let my mother work again. Seeing the smile on his lips made me feel the beauty of heaven.
"I am home". "Kaka, isn't Kaka taking my favorite bread? Where is Kaka, where? " "Tadaaaaa, strowberry sandwich with chocolate topping on top. Yummy ". "Here". "Eits, give me my request first". "Good princess Yara. I'll grant your request. " "Close your eyes and look for me". "Kakaaaaaaaaa". We both laughed cheerfully. "Tok tok tok tok" someone knocked on the door. "Yes wait a minute". I opened the door slowly. My mother worked in a mansion at a crossroads. After maghrib he went home and left again after we left for school. Being a household assistant made my mother very tired. I as the eldest child helps mom at home. We spent our days with my mother after dusk passed. We always play weekends on the hill of Passwordago. Seeing the beautiful twilight with a smile that adorns it. The time is 5:30 a.m. "Ah, are you home? Maybe today you go home sooner, "I thought. "What are you doing here? Quickly leave before I spit on your face. Rena ran over to us. "Kaka, you have come home, yes". "Rena, my dear child". "Release the rena, you have no right to touch it". "Who are you? You're that bad person right. Get out of here criminals ". "Come on because we're in". I closed the door tightly. I will never let that person enter my palace.
"Rena, don't tell me that the criminals came here, huh. You know, mom will be very worried. " "Good princess yara". "Hap, let's take a shower. You smell so bad. Uweeee ". "Aaaaaargggh, wait for the princess. The bread isn't finished yet. " "Arghhhh come on".
Maghrib adhan reverberates. We immediately performed the Maghrib prayer together. Incidentally, the mother had gone home after the person left. I will never let them meet. Mother says "Keeping a grudge against your father is not good, you must respect and forgive him" My mother is a very good woman who doesn't deserve that person hurt her. I never wanted to forgive him for the rest of my life, I also instilled hatred in my heart towards him. Rena does not need to know him, he is just rubbish that I need to throw away to the deep steep bottom.
Mother, do you still love father? " "Why did you ask that kid? Mother still loves her but your father is happy with them, "he said. "But he has hurt my mother, left us. He does not deserve to accept your forgiveness and kindness, ma'am. "Yara ..." "I love mom". I ran into the room and locked the door. Why do you have the heart for us? Father divorced mother to live with her. Even when the mother has given birth to this world, father prefers the tempter woman. Is it wrong for mom? Mother just doesn't want to share her love.
8 years have passed. During that time I kept hatred for him. I never introduced her to her father. Likewise mothers, mothers only do whatever I want. As hard as that he raised us with his own sweat. Mother never said tired. Mother does not want to see her children grow up without the love of a father, ever mother gives her a chance. But I never want it.
"Father promised not to leave me right? Father will also look after the younger brother. Right? " "Yes dear, I promise. If your sister is born, we will play together ". At that time the mother's age was large, in two months the doctor said she would give birth to my sister. I can't wait for that day. Everything changes after the woman comes with a stomach like a mother. He came to claim to be the father's wife's savings. I never want to believe it. Because I really keep hope there. Heaven cries with me, I want to drop the woman with her baby. I don't want to have a sister other than my mother's womb. Father has incised a very deep wound on me as well as the mother. Even though I was 9 years old, I knew what had happened. Father betrayed mother. After Rena was born, my father left leaving us waiting for the birth of her daughter. I really hate it.
"Honey, let's wake up kid. You will be late later. "I don't want to go to school, I want to work. I don't want to continue to bother moms ". "Yara, mom doesn't feel bothered. If because you work, it's all for you and for you. Don't make your mother's efforts in vain ". "Arggh, that 1 year is still a long time ago mom. Yara wants to work fast ". "Come on, let's go. Mother to take ". "Oh yeah, yes. But you don't need to transfer. Later you will be scolded by the grandmother. "
I got out of my bed and rushed to take a shower. After breakfast and deliver to school. I have planned something, I will go to work to ease my mother's burden. I never thought, today was the first time I skipped school. For mother's sake, I can do it.
I worked at a cafe until 05:00, my mother wouldn't be suspicious because I came home as usual. I hear you can't pay school tuition yet. Schooling her two children alone made her work very hard. Mother always refuses father's gift. Therefore, I have to work harder.
"What, borrow money, you say. Don't know yourself. Am I too kind to you. Listen, hani. Maid like you, where can you pay it off. Maybe you want to run away and don't want to pay. Your monthly salary is not enough to pay. You fool. "The woman pushed my mother to the floor. His salary and work are not comparable. As I said. My mother is always kind to everyone. His hard work is only paid at a low price. Her pride is trampled on for the children she loves. They, just come and go. I really hate men.
"Where were you?". "Mother, are you home? Mother come home early? " "Where were you?". "I'm working part time. I also know, right? " "The mother was there and the owner said you didn't go to work". "Ah, I work, ma'am." "Did you go to school?" My mother asked. I'm just silent because I don't dare to lie. "Answer yara, mom never taught you to lie". "Yeah, I didn't go to school and work". "Mother said, don't work, you have to go to school. How many times have you said that yara. I just want you to reach your goals. Mother only wants you to graduate and study diligently. If the mother is gone, at least the mother will be calm and her children will not suffer ". "Mother, what did you say? Mom don't say that. I'm sorry, mother. Rena comes to hug us. I promised my mother I would keep guarding it for the rest of my life. I will be responsible for my sister's life. I promise I will be the child who always obeys his words. I will continue to try to boast my mother, I will study hard and prove to her that we are happy without people like father. It was the first time my mother had scolded me and said those words. As if mom will leave me and Rena.
2 months later…
I want to go home soon and hug him. But there is no need to wait for time to go home, mothers will come to school because today there will be a class increase. Mother was present in the midst of the crowd who were sitting under the stage. Last month I brought good grades and rank 1 in my class. Making mother proud of me is one of the ideals that I need to achieve.
A few hours passed. When I arrived, I was performing on stage. I read poetry to mother.
Like I've said ...
There are no hills that are as beautiful as you ...
There are no seas that flow beautifully like the chanting of every prayer ...
Your mother is my guide, leading me away from the catastrophe of death ...
Your mother is like clear water ...
No clear that makes it taste ...
Nature and its contents have never replaced you as a shelter ...
I want to always be your baby mother ...
That's the poem I read to him. I saw my mother shed tears. I really don't want to see it at all. It is time to announce the 1st general champion at the provincial level. I never thought. The headmaster reads all the achievements the champion has achieved. Trophies, medals and certificates that have been won by the champions are very good for the school. And me, I'm the champion. My name was called several times, I ran. But not to get on stage. I have to take my mother to the hospital.
Upon arrival. The doctor said my mother was gone. Mother has left us to heaven. I said to the scene, Mother just left for a while. What is the meaning of all that without a mother. I never want to be the champion if I have to lose it. Why should it be now? Why when I'm not ready to live without it. When I just boasted it. I haven't had the chance to make him happy. How do you live because you don't understand anything? I'm fragile among the awards. I never want to be happy without it.
"Your mother has heart disease. He has long felt it without any intention to treat it. Sorry we could not save him, if only faster maybe your mother could be helped. We are sorry. " At that time the one thing I knew the cause of all this was me. If only she didn't come, if only she stayed at home. This won't happen. Under the gravestone, I convey something to God. "Take care of my mother, put her in your heaven. He is a very good mother. He had suffered a long time without complaining. He has been serving you for a long time. I want you to reciprocate just by putting him in your room. "
After mother's death. My father came to pick us up. I never wanted to see it, so did it. Now, I really understand. Even more mature than I imagined. Rena knows that mother has been called God. Rena never cries. Rena is more silent without wanting to say much to me. I live together with Rena. The school promised to give me education until I graduated and entered higher education. To meet our needs, I am still working part time. Father went bankrupt and fell into poverty. His wife just left him. My burden is increasing. Father fell ill and could only lie in bed. My mother taught me to always serve my parents. I forgive my father and take care of them. Mother said, I must not continue to hate her for heaven. God won't like me if I continue to be hostile to him. My brother grew one, he was the same age as Rena. They are both very similar. Now I have to fight harder. My mother is my paradise!
The end