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There is a certain way in which I will act and amazed of my actions, and there is also a certain way I behave which always makes me disgusted.

I would not say that I know myself very well because every day, I discover some attributes that make me question the knowledge I have of myself. Subconsciously, I know how to bring up new attitudes, all depending on the place, time and people I am interacting with.

As said earlier, there are things I do that are disappointing to even my own self.

One thing about me is that I love being too nice.

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In most cases, I offer to be the sacrificial lamb so that other people will feel okay. At the same time, I hate it when people take my leniency for weakness or stupidity. This has affected my relationships with people as they always tend to misbehave when I show them kindness. Most especially, females. Being friends with anyone, I tend to overdo. Always be there when they need me, send them money even when they don't ask for my help, carry their problems as mine and try as much as possible to solve their problems. Basically, I put them before me.

Most people always begin to feel entitled and tend to feel annoyed when they ask me for something and I dont have to give. They begin to feel like it's their right for me to always be kind to them and some tend to always take me for nothing, just someone they can play with because he cares a lot but to me, I am just being who I am.

I remember when I was still in school, I use to be nice to one of my coursemates. I always provided what he needs even before he asks. I will cook and call him to come eat. It was like I am his father. All of a sudden, he began to feel entitled. Things changed drastically and I was surprised by the attitudes he was displaying. He even fought me one day because I asked him why he went into my room to take sachet water without my knowledge. I was really furious but tried as much as possible to remain calm.

After the incident, I began t advise myself against giving people helping hands but all to no avail.

I always try to be the most kind person on earth when it comes to my friends but well, most of them try to make use of that part of me.

One thing I always tell myself when people turn against me is that: "no good deed goes unpunished."

I saw this quote online some years ago and I don't know the author.

When I see people who have this same character, I don't do anything because advising them against it has a higher probability of being futile. A kind person will always be kind irrespective of what the world throws at him or her.

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